perfectlyimperfect

Stop I said to myself ''Never!'' myself said to me And I said no more To weak I am To not able to fight Of my own want My own need My own quest My own dream Stupid me

What ever I do People find fault As if they are experts Of what i'm doing So I put my hands on my ears So I'm alone again So I can do what I want Period

Today: Test Organic Chem This Week: Futsal. ~~hujan~~ Y_Y This Month: Belanje banyak This Year: Sama dengan di atas sbb taun ni baru sebulan Life: Clueless. Tak de matlamat (" --)

Susah sangatkah Nak cari kawan yang baik Yang bila gembira Ketawanya bersama Yang bila berduka Adanya bersama Susah sangatkah mahu jumpa rakan yang setia yang rela membela tak kenal derhaka aku hanya mahu teman yang percaya aku bila semua berkata aku tiada gunanya aku hanya mahu kawan yang berkata, "Naja,dia boleh buat semua tu" "aku percaya dia,dia takkan putus asa" "beri dia sedikit peluang dan ruang" "sedikit lagi masa,dia bisa" Aku hanya mahu kawan yang mengerti bahasa derita aku Jika tak bisa dia mengerti derita aku Dulu aku bukan duka begini aku tak pernah duka begini dulu aku rasa sendiri, tapi masih ada teman yang rasa sekali Kini aku rasa sendiri tetapi yang ini memang benar sendiri Kerana dulu kawanku adalah aku serupa wataknya sama deritanya Tapi kini aku tinggal sendiri Aku tinggal aku kerana aku mencuba hidup dengan suasana beda bercampur baur jenis dan ragam aku ketap aku genggam Aku beranikan pilihanku Tapi aku kecewa Aku hanya mah

Baru-baru ni Aku selalu pikir dulu Baru cakap Sebab mulut aku lancang Tapi pikir dua kali pun Kadang-kadang x cukup Jadi sekarang Aku pelik Orang cakap Tanpa berfikir

Didn't I say so? The cycle will be complete. Again I'm having my happy life again. You know that old story.. going nice n bad,back and forth with my best friend. But I know this smiles and laughter Will not last long Just have to enjoy it right now Before it turns into thin air in God knows when For now Let me just smile and laugh more For I give another three days for this to last Wait and see When will this vampire friend of mine Sucking my life Again Hate you life-sucking vampire

Satu hari aku bangun Aku jaga dengan dua kepala Aku bukan lagi manusia Aku bukan manusia biasa Aku manusia bermuka-muka Aku mungkin nampak baik dari luar tapi aku jahat sebenarnya Aku mungkin nampak jahat dari luar tapi aku lagi jahat sebenarnya Aku suka betulkan orang Padahal aku salah Aku suka salahkan orang Padahal aku tak betul Tak betul laku Tak betul kepala otak Badan aku tak boleh lagi tanggung dua makhluk Muka aku dah lesu pakai topeng baik Aku dah penat Aku dah letih Jadi makhluk dua kepala

Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah,Lagi Maha Mengasihani. Katakanlah (Muhammad), "Dialah Allah,Yang Maha Esa." "Allah tempat meminta segala sesuatu" "(Allah) tidak beranak dan tidak pula diperanakkan " "Dan tidak ada sesuatu yang setara dengan Dia" al-Ikhlas. Allah is ours.

it is always about me the problems... i am a problem magnet sadly i dunno how to demagnetized myself cuz i am an unpredictable magnet that changes its pole unpredictably once i understands the problems from south i'm changing into north in a snap i can't go repeating the same thing again and again it's not like it's the hardest problem ever men encountered people says problems give you strength, that if you pass it,you'll be just fine but in fact this weaken me i'm weak cuz i know the pattern i'm weak cuz i know when will it come i'm weak cuz i know how it will end,and start all over again and still i can't do nothing to stop it the cycle one really sick cycle and it really scares me when i said i can't do nothing bout it [and what the heck am i doing posting dis too early in the morning??!!!I'm sick!]

can't take it no more. the way I was treated lately Just too much But the world says, '' Don't you ever cry.'' I can't cry cuz i'm a man How sick is that?

Sometimes I feel like stopping having more friends, because what I do have now, are already out of hand. All these will sound mean, I still love you all my friends, But lemme define what is mean See, I have this one friend who kept changing mood, I thought I know everything bout this particular friend, but in fact, I don't. Early days of our friendship, I can say I have finally found The Best Friend ~sigh it wasn't for long, till I made a mistake. Back to be just another ordinary friend if not confidante and I thought all was forgiven I thought so, should my heart grew fond over my forgiven brutal acts, my everyday life starts to decay,rot and me~ crippled by day by you my ex best friend Okay,best friend no more I want to be a best friend is what you did not allow, so I accepted that reluctantly coz i've sinned but now I don't think you yourself allow it You kept me in a cage where I cannot make new friends and when I'm trying to, you go senile The formula is easy m

me and my past years never have been good tried but what can i do just don't really can stick to my resolution urgh,that 10 letters word made me feel like vomiting already it is just too big a word to be digested for a year i'll try though but right now lemme rest for a while just too lazy to even raise a finger to change 'i' to 'I' new year wudda ya mean to me???