tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9184771009911431642024-02-21T02:24:29.245+08:00perfectlyimperfectNajakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.comBlogger268125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-51979381314880543952023-10-21T12:27:00.000+08:002023-10-21T12:27:06.545+08:00Coklat<p><span style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman";"><i><span style="font-size: x-small;">Ini adalah sambungan kepada tulisan yang pernah dikongsikan pada September 2013 : <a href="https://ashoulderon.blogspot.com/2013/09/vanila.html">Vanila</a></span></i></span></p><p><span style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-size: large;"><br /></span></p><p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman";">“</span><span style="background-color: #fcf5ea;"><span style="font-family: times;">Apa maksud kau kau nak pergi jauh? Aku tak faham.”</span></span></span></p><p><span style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman";"><span style="font-size: medium;">“Aku dapat tawaran sambung belajar di US.”</span></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">“Aku tak kisah kau nak pergi US ke, London ke, Korea Utara ke. Yang aku kisah janji kita!”</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Dia tunduk, diam. Aku jalan mundar-mandir. Dalam hati ini bergolak seribu rasa.</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">“Aku sudah tolak tawaran-tawaran yang aku dapat sebab kita janji kita nak <i>study</i> sini saja. Sampai hati kau buat aku macam ni. Sampai hati kau khianati janji kita. Khianati aku!”</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">“Maaf.”</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Lama diam. Angin yang tadi bertiup pun ikut berhenti berhembus. Yang ada hanya sayup bunyi-bunyi budak bermain dari seberang padang. Sedikit demi sedikit aku menyusun pemikiran aku agar tak tersalah bicara. Dia bukan orang yang suka-suka buat keputusan tanpa sebab munasabah.</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">“Baiklah. Jujur aku marah, aku tak faham kenapa kau macam ni. Tapi itu kita sembang belakang. Tentang tawaran yang aku tolak tu aku boleh cuba buat rayuan. Tapi hal yang penting sekali, yang aku nak tahu macam mana dengan Abah? Siapa nak jaga dia dekat sini?”</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">“Itu salah satu sebab aku nak cakap dengan kau hari ni.” Kepalanya miring ke arah aku tetapi matanya masih melekat di tanah. Ada kerisauan walau sekadar sebelah wajahnya yang tampak.</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Aku ikut risau untuk bertanya tapi aku gagahkan. </span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">“Apa maksud kau?”</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Dia berpaling dan memandang tepat ke mata aku . Namun rayuan dari matanya menyampaikan satu mesej yang tidak aku jangka. Menderu darah naik ke muka aku.</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">“Kau nak aku jaga Abah?! Aku kena lupakan tawaran aku dapat, kena jaga Abah dan engkau senang-lenang ke Amerika?!”</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Bagai mati dibunuh dua kali. Tergamak dia meminta pertolongan dari orang yang baru saja dikhianatinya. Aku tak boleh memandang mukanya. Aku genggam tangan aku yang menggeletar. Sekejap sekejap aku tertawa bagai orang hilang akal. Aku marah. Dan kecewa. Dan Malu. Malu dengan seorang kawan yang aku pandang tinggi boleh jadi sejelek ini sikapnya. Semudah itu dia meninggalkan Abah kepada aku.</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Sejak aku kehilangan susuk yang aku panggil ayah, Abahlah tempat aku menumpang kasih. Kami dua keluarga memang rapat semenjak kami masih kecil. Kalau Ayah tiada di rumah pergi bekerja, aku akan berlari ke rumah sebelah mengadu kepada Abah kalau ada anak-anak nakal yang mengganggu aku di padang. Pernah sekali aku disengat lebah, Abahlah yang menenangkan aku sambil disapu merah-merah sengatan dengan getah pokok kemboja. Waktu dapur keluarga aku tak berasap, Abah akan datang diekori anak bertuahnya membawa mangkuk tingkat berisi nasi dan lauk. Begitulah Abah. Terlalu baik dan tak pernah berkira-kira.</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">“Aku sudah buat kira-kira. Dengan biasiswa yang aku dapat, aku boleh tanggung kos perbelanjaan dan upah jagakan Abah. Aku mohon jasa baik kau untuk terus dengan janji kita, walaupun aku sendiri memungkirinya.” suaranya berbisik di hujung ayat.</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Aku menikamnya dengan jelingan yang tajam. Dia segera berpaling.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Tega dia cuba membeli aku dengan wang. Tega dia menggunakan kelemahan aku demi kepentingan diri sendiri. Dia tahu aku bukan jenis melawan. Dia tahu aku sayang Abah lebih dari ayah aku sendiri. Pengkhianat.</span></p><p class="p2" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Aku tak boleh bernafas.</span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Aku tak boleh berfikir. </span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="background-color: #fcf5ea; font-family: "Times New Roman"; font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Aku perlu jauh dari dia. Aku membuka langkah berlari melintas padang, meninggalkan dia di pangkin seorang. Air mata ini tak tertahan-tahan. Hari ini aku hilang seorang kawan.</span></p>Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-87839579147975755542023-10-10T16:40:00.004+08:002023-10-21T10:58:25.965+08:00Hot Mess<p><span> </span>It’s hot. It’s arid. The air sizzles like it will spontaneously burst into flames. From afar I can see the horizon blurred by the haze. Freakin Indonesia and their annual ritual of choking us dead.</p><p><span> </span>I’m drenched, and my arms are sticky and numb from supporting my sweaty forehead when I tried to sleep the heat away but that’s now moot because I’m awake, and annoyed at the smallest things now. The rising temperature somehow lowers the baseline of tolerance. Like this one little fly that’s been bothering me while I was asleep. One. Fly. So annoyed that it was somehow able to circumnavigate the maze of flytraps that I littered across the floor and tabletops.</p><p><span> </span>Usually, I’ll just wave away this measly pest. But these past few days they’ve been under my radar just from the sheer number of them. There are hundreds of them if not more. I can’t shake them off. Hence the fly traps. There’s something about this hot weather and a dead cat that’s like a perfect combo meal for these little flying nuisances. I didn’t bury the poor, dead cat but by the smell of it, I’m pretty sure the maggots must be having a feast of a lifetime (literally because they’re short-lived). They said curiosity killed the cat, and sure enough, it was Fairus who felt the curiosity to find the killed cat and had the honour to do the burial.</p><p><span> </span>It was last Wednesday morning that I caught a whiff of death. <i>Ah, it must be a dead rat somewhere next door</i>. By afternoon, it was unbearable. When the wind blows in a certain direction, the stench engulfs my olfactory. If it’s a dead rat it will not smell as big as this, if that makes sense. Because smell does have a volume that correlates to the size of the thing it came from. Funny thing our nose is. </p><p><span> </span>And if it’s really a dead rat, by evening, in this kind of heat, the stinging ammonia stench will turn into something that has some sweetness to it, not unlike ikan masin. But this one sustained its aroma. If a dead rat’s smell is eau de toilette, a dead cat is eau de parfum. It lingers even when the wind blows in the opposite direction. Makes me wonder about those occasional cases of cat abusers I read on Twitter (What? I don’t have a Twitter account. Why do you think I have one?). How the fish they can live with rotting cats in their house? Bunch of psychos.</p><p><span> </span>Talking about psychos, evidently, I have no emotional attachment to cats. Dead cat? Oh, it’s just how life is. Meh. Whatever. I will probably go <i>oh no, not another one?!</i> if it’s me who has to bury the body. So it is kinda amazing to me that people cry over their pets, especially when they have a short life span like hamsters or guinea pigs. Imagine if they pet a fly, waterworks every fifteen days? Yikes.</p><p><span> </span>But rest assured I’m not a psycho because there’s something so creepy about a thing so animated like a cat to turn cold and stiff. I’ve had my share of burying cats before and I cannot bring myself to touch them barehanded. Picture a teddy bear, it looks fluffy but it’s cold and firm to touch *shudders*. Imagine being a killer who can’t handle dead bodies. That’s a short stint for sure. Definitely not for me, let me find a different hobby, thank you.</p><p><span> </span>Wait, is that the scent of rain I smell coming? It’s raining, man, Alhamdulillah! Thanks for reading this mindless rambling. Ciao.</p>Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-79154569674523507762023-03-17T23:09:00.004+08:002023-10-10T16:32:43.974+08:00Dream A Little Dream of Me<div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;">Have you ever missed someone in your dreams? Like you haven't seen them in the flesh for a very long time and there they are, right in front of you, so real you can feel your skin dented under the touch of their fingers. And some time at the very end you’d figure out that it is just a mind game, and very soon the illusion will end. And dreams like these hurt so much like they’re real. And doubly painful when you're dreaming your past memories.</span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;">It doesn’t even have to be a particularly special memory, just you and them doing the mundanest things in places so familiar, but places you can’t ever go back because space, sometimes moves forward like time does. You can never go back to your old house because it’s no longer yours or it’s simply not there anymore. That shared bedroom you cleaned together on Sundays. The mamak you met after a hard day at work. They cannot be yours again. Even if you try your best you can tell it’s not the same thing. The sound, the air, the light, the smell, and worst of all, your conscience will betray your memories. You’d know the whole time it is just your poor attempt to relive things. That it ended exactly the same moment it began.</span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;">And not just time and space, it’s people too. People change, and on God they do. The anticipation of meeting old friends is the only moment you feel true joy. Because people change. When you finally meet them, you’d find yourself looking for the youthfulness, the not-a-care-for-the-world-ness, catchphrases you said in sync, the inside jokes so inside you laughed at the absurdity of how unfunny they are to others. That you used to be their world and they yours. That is no more. Maybe that’s why we’re so annoyed by that group of boys laughing at the next table. Not because we want some peace eating alone after a tiring week. But because it reminded us of us, of people we will never can ever be.</span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;">Now meeting old friends is not just a fun, whatever kind of thing. There’s an air of seriousness. Decorum to follow (especially when they bring along their family). After all, you are no more than just one weekend in their entire adult life, at best. Like, is a half-day outing even one weekend? You matter none, like if the hangout gets postponed, in which it usually did, it wouldn’t change a thing about their life, and tragically yours too. And it’s not like you can just relive your youth full speed from the get-go. Because your life and their life are so terribly different you have to have the surfacy probing questions about your work, your life, your love life, none of which needs to be asked if we’re just, us. And the way people tiptoe around asking them because one slight choice of word someone will be offended. Beats me if you ask me why. Because I’m sure it can offend me too.</span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;">I don’t know. It’s not like I don’t get that life has to go in a certain direction at a certain time. That at one point the little bird has to leave the nest, or whatever poetic analogy to this. I get it. I might not know the point of telling things that are obvious, rummaging over things I have no control over. But right now I’m glad I did. Don’t be confused, I’m not happy about it but glad I am.</span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;">Only with introspection into hardly important matters like this, I can mindlessly navigate them when I’m forced to face them again. </span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;"><br /></span></div><div style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-optical-sizing: auto; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variation-settings: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue;">And only this way I can tangibly tell our life is inevitably temporary, cruel, and just about as real as the dreams I had of you.</span></div></div>Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-76763994560519132172023-02-27T12:49:00.002+08:002023-02-27T13:03:02.403+08:00Did You Still Remember Our Memories of the 90s<div style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;">Did you still remember</span></div><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">our little two-room house?</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Wooden shutters for windows</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">identical except for the one long one facing east</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">And the tiny verandah at the front</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">overlooking what was an unpaved and dusty street</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">There’ll be red all over our clothes and our feet</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">after an evening there playing stick bare feet.</span></div></span></div><div style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; vertical-align: baseline;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; font-style: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-weight: 400; text-align: center; text-decoration-line: none; white-space: pre-wrap;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiFc_yU6apOi7iossrkUg18rXMp0Jj2cW1FjGFtp58NvxmvKTH0nT3xRRFKdtNNEhMk8UxSk3vtwwpEkjiH_7yciTEgBSbnKGLGYm82Cb4lBYMJXj2s_oJH55F51aNVmleZ9VuyflI-mhyfe1URd_leEdLLWN9q7GJkmpNLmNrNqW11zOS0ktT02Ry3Mg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1971" data-original-width="2628" height="300" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiFc_yU6apOi7iossrkUg18rXMp0Jj2cW1FjGFtp58NvxmvKTH0nT3xRRFKdtNNEhMk8UxSk3vtwwpEkjiH_7yciTEgBSbnKGLGYm82Cb4lBYMJXj2s_oJH55F51aNVmleZ9VuyflI-mhyfe1URd_leEdLLWN9q7GJkmpNLmNrNqW11zOS0ktT02Ry3Mg" width="400" /></a></div><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div></span></span></div><div style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;">Did you remember when we used to climb</span></div><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">that rose apple tree?</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">One that used to shade the corner of our parents' room</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">We’d stake a claim on which branch was ours</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I was slow so I got the crooked one</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">We’d dream of building tree huts</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">one for each branch</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">And when it’s in season</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">we’d collect the fruit</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Sometimes we eat them raw</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">sometimes we cut them in half</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">put them in the fridge</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">checking them every several minutes</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">before savoring the cool, watery treat</span></div></span></div><div style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Did you remember when our nails</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">would be so black with dirt under</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">After we played hunting for treasures</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Below the towering kecapi tree</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">and in the shallow water, ankle-deep</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Down at the swampy lowland</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">near the pond over the fence</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">One time what we thought was a bag of treasure</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">really was just a piece of old sack</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">to the laughter of our father</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">before he chased us back</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">to our home</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">our little shelter</span></div></span></div><div style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Life seems carefree then</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">no responsibility back when we were not even ten</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">But even back then</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I've always prefer living my world of one</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Solitude then was not a luxury</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">but rather my truest identity</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Somewhere along my years away from home</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I forget the sweetness of being alone</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I lost my sense of it</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">and with it</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">myself</span></div></span></div><div style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Mother used to worry about it</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">But I wouldn’t care one bit</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">For a world of one</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">made me feel big and small</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">all at the same time</span></div></span></div><div style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Did you know I love watching the rain fall?</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">From the end of the roof</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">down to the bare ground of our small yard</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Each drop dug the soil a little deeper</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">And I loved it when it stops too</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">particularly late in the evening</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">the air will be cold and damp </span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">but the sky will glow a million shades of red</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">like a hot iron or a burning mountain</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">a contradiction, a juxtaposition, a contrast</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">but little me basked in it nonetheless</span></div></span></div><div style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Did you know</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I love wasting away the hot days</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Days so hot our creaky standing fan</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">begged mercy from the sun,</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Days so hot the roof our neighbour</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Shimmered blue like some type of mirror</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">So I’d lie on the verandah,</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">naked but for a pair of shorts</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">re-reading the same books</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">the same years-old teen magazines</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">the wind will sometimes gust a sudden rage</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">blowing away the pages</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">and half of it tunnels its way through the gaps in the floor</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">cool, earthy breeze grazing on my sticky back,</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">and the sweaty nape of my neck</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">lulling me into a dream</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Hazy images of the sky</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">of oceans and river</span></div></span></div><div style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></div><p style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"></p><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;">And did you know</span></div><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;">When it’s close to lunch</div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I will wake myself from the slumber</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">then make my way to my mother</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">lying my chin on the dining table lined with linoleum</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">She’d patiently answer my every silly questions</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">about everything and nothing</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">that I have no business asking</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">that I, embarrassingly, still ask today</span></div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">and I wouldn’t want to stop asking</span></div></span><p></p><div style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;">because unlike my life</span></div><span style="font-family: trebuchet; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;">I like some things</div></span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">to never ever change</span></div></span></div><p></p><p style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></span></p><p style="line-height: 1.2; margin-bottom: 9pt; margin-top: 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></span></p></div>Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-35864518067590600702022-12-01T09:32:00.002+08:002022-12-01T09:32:56.248+08:00Bandarasa<p style="text-align: center;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Ada yang tak sempat aku katakan</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Padamu yang tidak lagi hadir dalam lamunan</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Ketika kita bertemu di suatu bandar di hujung negeri</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Mencari nama pada rasa yang tidak kita mengerti</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Ada yang tak sempat aku fahamkan</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Ketika kita memerhati bandar ini dalam diam</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Penghuninya yang sibuk menelusur jalan-jalan yang tidak teratur</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Tidak seperti negeri desa yang sudah aku huni</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Hampir dua tahun tak lama lagi</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgvg_VOBgdo7kjIzhj5urthhpze8B9sUM75tnYILpwLWMKfX9ESKD-KyGeDJ3dLaMGSa08F3WjRCDBu7_AdqvJYeLkteRDiEqy5OYuNckEwEDjcd2lvo5TdArduLioXYwfjEchDQJx7jXRFr4b4HlDis_uWK7saY6jmSc4YrUUO6yYDt9yx_8j-zFWfnw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1151" data-original-width="2047" height="225" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgvg_VOBgdo7kjIzhj5urthhpze8B9sUM75tnYILpwLWMKfX9ESKD-KyGeDJ3dLaMGSa08F3WjRCDBu7_AdqvJYeLkteRDiEqy5OYuNckEwEDjcd2lvo5TdArduLioXYwfjEchDQJx7jXRFr4b4HlDis_uWK7saY6jmSc4YrUUO6yYDt9yx_8j-zFWfnw=w400-h225" width="400" /></a></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Bandar yang menjadi saksi pertemuan kita yang hampir sedekad</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Bandar yang menyimpan banyak rahsia dan cerita</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Tetapi angin selat Melaka bagaikan terhenti di sini hari ini</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Menyesakkan</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Sehingga pancaindera aku menjadi tumpul</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Buta dan tuli dengan kata-kata yang tersirat</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Sedangkan itu adalah bahasa kita</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Semenjak hari pertama hingga tujuh tahun lamanya</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Ada yang tidak sempat aku luahkan</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Padamu yang aku lihat tersenyum</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Tiada lagi garis kerisauan di dahimu</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Tiada lagi ketegangan dalam suaramu</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Engkau aku lihat tenang</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Apabila kita berbicara tentang masa depan</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Ada keyakinan dalam renung matamu</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Ada kesabaran dalam rentak tuturanmu</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Ada penyerahan dan kesediaan pada apa jua takdirmu</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></div><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEggDCmZUAAUhyJhaH7eepUxhO0n7yAs1uryTCTHVEE4KRtYnlKf9-q67-T33rnRBgYnuknYPghHkygR3nc94CMj4QlOpBHVpNKEOa-fJT5etWg8rCXdLzdvlWSoydGgfSQPYHOr5IiDym2_PEqQkXvRT6iuUcrAhKUn-FZ7GXPDxSuHlt2_3VA1Hne-sw" style="font-family: Times; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1380" data-original-width="2453" height="225" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEggDCmZUAAUhyJhaH7eepUxhO0n7yAs1uryTCTHVEE4KRtYnlKf9-q67-T33rnRBgYnuknYPghHkygR3nc94CMj4QlOpBHVpNKEOa-fJT5etWg8rCXdLzdvlWSoydGgfSQPYHOr5IiDym2_PEqQkXvRT6iuUcrAhKUn-FZ7GXPDxSuHlt2_3VA1Hne-sw" width="400" /></a></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Ada yang tidak sempat aku katakan</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Padamu yang tidak lagi aku rindukan</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Biar bandar rasa ini jadi saksi</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Yang kita tak lagi mengharapkan senja</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Tetapi menantikan pagi</span></p>Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-28793079793543635952022-10-27T18:41:00.001+08:002022-10-27T18:44:48.461+08:00Pertemuan Terakhir<p><span style="font-family: georgia;">Sepertinya aku perlu bersendiri. Hingar suara biar pun dari seorang bagai menampar gegendang telinga.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Dan aku benci bila aku membenci. Lagi-lagi pada yang aku kisah untuk kasihkan.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Pertemuan kita yang terakhir nampaknya lagi menambah sesak dalam dada. Dunia melihat kita gembira, walhal deritalah yang mencantum hati kita. Kita cuba merungkai tali-tali takdir yang sudah terlalu kusut, hingga terlilit jari-jari kita sewaktu kita bertingkah tentangnya, di hujung malam yang kian kemamar. Sedangkan masa dan mata sudah letih menunggu kita, masih lagi aku mencuba kerana ada ketulusan dibalik tali yang bergumpal ini . Tetapi akal dan pengalaman yang dangkal manakan mampu mengundurkan tiga dekad yang dosa dan derita.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Wahai teman, entah mengapa aku merasakan sudah sampai kita di garis perpisahan. Cabang di jalan ini menduga kaki yang letih untuk terus berjalan. Keletihan yang aku takut bercambah menjadi api, membakar kita bersama. Jika benar perkiraannya, tidak ada lagi yang mampu aku tawarkan kecuali luka, kepada engkau atau aku tidak guna dibezakan lagi kerana jiwa kita sudah satu. Aku hanya manusia yang rindu pada kamu yang tidak sempat aku kenal, tautan yang seinci ini terlalu singkat untuk aku judikan.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Wahai teman, tali yang kusut ini aku tinggalkan di sini untuk kaurungkaikan sendiri. Aku tak boleh lagi hadir dalam ruang dan masamu, kerana aku perlu menjadi aku, jika tidak aku sengsara. Dan jika aku sengsara, aku takut engkau ikut sengsara.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Engkau akan aku tinggalkan. Dan ini pesan aku.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Lihatlah dengan mata jiwamu.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Betapa jalan kita menapak adalah jalan dusta tanpa bahagia, jalan yang penuh halusinasi. Selagi aku memimpinmu selagi itu tidak akan engkau berani lari ke jalan cinta yang selayaknya untukmu.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Jika engkau hilang arah, lihatlah sedalam-dalamnya ke dalam hatimu, persembahkan apa yang kautemukan kepada Tuhan dengan sebaik-baik persembahan. Kerana yang aku mampu lakukan, hanyalah mengingatimu dalam sujudku. Bait-bait doa yang aku kait ini terlalu hina untuk dikirimkan apatah lagi dimakbulkan. Tetapi jika isi hatimu telah kau hidang sebaik-baiknya di atas meja, semoga doa yang hina ini cukup untuk memberatkan neraca ihsan Sang Pembolak Balik Hati.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Janganlah pula kita menangisi sudahnya malam-malam kita berbicara, malam-malam kita melihat bebintang yang mencoret langit, malam-malam bila segala rahsia, rasa, dan air mata bergulung bersama bunyi-bunyi ombak yang menghempas pasir dosa.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Foto-foto yang aku ambil, video-video yang aku rakam akan menjadi loket yang akan aku gantung dekat dengan dadaku. Cukuplah jika hadir rindu itu kita bisikkan pada sang bulan, denyut rasa kita cukup besar untuk ia berdenyar di malam yang terang, aku pasti.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Melankolia ini hanyalah sementara. Satu hari nanti kita akan melihat kembali perpisahan ini dengan bahagia. Bila engkau menjadi engkau, dan aku menjadi aku, kita akan tersenyum bangga. Ini sumpah aku. Darah aku aku pajakkan. </span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Di sini kita berpisah.</span></p>Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-75251552878315997482022-09-29T21:16:00.004+08:002022-10-03T06:47:07.758+08:00Train to Dabong III<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></p><p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: medium;"> “Sunrise! Sunrise!”</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Ada sekumpulan lelaki menjerit-jerit di luar khemah.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">“Siapa tu?” Tanya Adeng, mamai.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">“Orang nak tengok <i>sunrise</i>,” aku jawab.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">“Sekarang pukul berapa?”</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">“Lima.”</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">“Tak logik.”</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Adeng, adeng. Malam semalam mengigau macam kena sengat lipan, pagi buta ni membebel pasal logik pulak. Hahaha.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Aku dah tak boleh tidur balik. Saiful pun melilau dekat luar. Jadi aku bangun dan duduk dekat unggun api. Apinya dah malap tapi baranya banyak lagi, jadi aku kutip-kutip daun buluh jadi bahan bakar. Kami sembang sekejap pasal cerita Atoq malam tadi. Tak lama kemudian Atoq datang. Sama terjaga sebab khemahnya dekat laluan orang pergi tengok <i>sunrise</i>. Atau mungkin juga sebab khemah muat satu Bad disumbat tiga orang.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i>It’s so ridiculously early still</i>, sebab lama juga kami bertiga bersembang sebelum nampak cahaya matahari terbit. Tak logik. Tapi baguslah dapat juga tips dari Atoq. Katanya untuk gatal-gatal digigit pacat letak krim atau minyak but-but. Aku ingat parut aku yang gatalnya sampai 3-4 bulan dah teruk. Rupanya dia lagi ekstrem, bengkak sampai jadi kaki gajah.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Hari ini hari terakhir kat Kem Baha. Hari terakhir tengok awan karpet. <i>Viewpoint</i> dah penuh dengan orang bila sampai sana. Jadi aku panjat batu dengan Saiful. Awan tak sebanyak semalam sebab tak ada hujan, tapi <i>on God it’s still beautiful</i>. </span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuooBfoB0gPARcSzl4a-16FsZCbulpYkiY_iw0lPC-5_VfsCMLQQOD3LnHO5DP5I6sPmH6aCn6-Q4YZ6uaiddzGBWokptqQYgaQ3-UGRWUt6xLi7yZ5acoqLMM0RKFt3jSV0M6AzdUdoQHKD7GQ7YPuBIdcef6yEcjoe2mSg8rC9R-O4nqWsdyxITVJw/s1280/IMG_0872.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="1280" height="360" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuooBfoB0gPARcSzl4a-16FsZCbulpYkiY_iw0lPC-5_VfsCMLQQOD3LnHO5DP5I6sPmH6aCn6-Q4YZ6uaiddzGBWokptqQYgaQ3-UGRWUt6xLi7yZ5acoqLMM0RKFt3jSV0M6AzdUdoQHKD7GQ7YPuBIdcef6yEcjoe2mSg8rC9R-O4nqWsdyxITVJw/w640-h360/IMG_0872.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgAJV1MPEK4PT9bAWI2pEvXQ4mw5HxdoliOkw-r9MNQdni1UeVvyf3f9iVm5QHrv_pj9zbPmvETkmFQHhWn5GyWL2XvbLmZXrvOGgIyo4lKUc4WWKUuks6hul1itZ1GkdGfhggT-tX2lckuc6IczBmpVCwLnDy3J1LKR6CI3ycaEemcFB2mNw7Q6Z8XSA" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="2268" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgAJV1MPEK4PT9bAWI2pEvXQ4mw5HxdoliOkw-r9MNQdni1UeVvyf3f9iVm5QHrv_pj9zbPmvETkmFQHhWn5GyWL2XvbLmZXrvOGgIyo4lKUc4WWKUuks6hul1itZ1GkdGfhggT-tX2lckuc6IczBmpVCwLnDy3J1LKR6CI3ycaEemcFB2mNw7Q6Z8XSA=w360-h640" width="360" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjFvpI_Uc0nawGMyIW09qZiH3fIZ4V3CcP6KEyjlu7glnkC_otEvlFJQl94dDNhyav6HZ7y7R0DJw70bqZWv6YdG7z47C5eYIT8qozbLBEMFhxJFx0JWVQGXncslYpF39-Tf5G9ekp3RA1QPuhj7hrHbS36nDxUHXNxvtf-C67VPMvmZBBPWd5_f8RpzA" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3470" data-original-width="1952" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjFvpI_Uc0nawGMyIW09qZiH3fIZ4V3CcP6KEyjlu7glnkC_otEvlFJQl94dDNhyav6HZ7y7R0DJw70bqZWv6YdG7z47C5eYIT8qozbLBEMFhxJFx0JWVQGXncslYpF39-Tf5G9ekp3RA1QPuhj7hrHbS36nDxUHXNxvtf-C67VPMvmZBBPWd5_f8RpzA=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhhtO9oAy7ThHRfFLqoGrPREddVmuBIOA3f3gwvSFtzzftrqw7WMR6HoIZu-zXKVSYEoisxndkJhu4BkLR5T7iqhtGJu3r6qmhDt7wEQGxMF_eBdf7rxt9FGcXqbHvKeAbGoai3xLWO_1aB3ey8gMFUHjHDeM4EPYiieG1ms2QSJgk_2nyLxwsDV5KBeg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="2268" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhhtO9oAy7ThHRfFLqoGrPREddVmuBIOA3f3gwvSFtzzftrqw7WMR6HoIZu-zXKVSYEoisxndkJhu4BkLR5T7iqhtGJu3r6qmhDt7wEQGxMF_eBdf7rxt9FGcXqbHvKeAbGoai3xLWO_1aB3ey8gMFUHjHDeM4EPYiieG1ms2QSJgk_2nyLxwsDV5KBeg=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></div></span><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Cak </span><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: large;">🤗</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Puas tengok sunrise, aku dan Sapek pergi dapur buat kopi dan teh. Dengan harapan kalau ada yang perasan kami malas-malas sepanjang perkhemahan, air kopi ni kira duit tutup mulut la. Pagi terakhir ni tak berapa <i>eventful</i> bagi aku sebab masing-masing dah <i>mood</i> nak balik rumah, walaupun tren pukul 12 malam ni. <i>Plus, how can anything possibly top last night’s story?</i> Ah, tapi sarapan pagi ni sedap. Walaupun sekadar spageti dan telur hancur dengan kuah rendang baki malam tadi. Sedap sampai aku curi sikit telur dari Shimi (<i>Adeng would like to differ!</i> #ytjt)</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Habis makan sesi ambil gambar lagi. Aku dah kata trip ni santai gila.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><span class="Apple-converted-space"><br /></span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><span class="Apple-converted-space">Aku tak faham apa benda ni, tapi aku post je la.</span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; 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line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><span class="Apple-converted-space"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjRMQS9wP_lzfm6EzEYHWedlacBj5wp3SAv8jAjXs_togukmjd5P9odxvqNfZrK2Cpzfx3DD40OxnUt-rURn76mjXHaLOBiwHEtoB26xdEUQgM5WYjuaMkAl6wRxiWvx5nEfvWZPpGkUrICAiK5ZeZsR1zTkqAmlVyk4FLY6UsFAulwS47cYjXHdlzYzg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2909" data-original-width="1637" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjRMQS9wP_lzfm6EzEYHWedlacBj5wp3SAv8jAjXs_togukmjd5P9odxvqNfZrK2Cpzfx3DD40OxnUt-rURn76mjXHaLOBiwHEtoB26xdEUQgM5WYjuaMkAl6wRxiWvx5nEfvWZPpGkUrICAiK5ZeZsR1zTkqAmlVyk4FLY6UsFAulwS47cYjXHdlzYzg=w360-h640" width="360" /></a> </span></span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjH03VKpoLfzEaqtOGmZRI56Wh2GILO2IIBJsdXuANw2_7RKehBnRJ9HgFDx-C5Z6kRNe1AVxJHD6Qw8h6Itfvwfa1v9a2qbWNaInzmvndNy-EnMB-9nkcrNNA9zDKNGh_37F9wStcJUz-7_DYXVVc41-jHmrnbcDOewN3A0sa4RmP346I8lz2EKFuRBQ" style="font-family: georgia; font-size: small; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="2268" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjH03VKpoLfzEaqtOGmZRI56Wh2GILO2IIBJsdXuANw2_7RKehBnRJ9HgFDx-C5Z6kRNe1AVxJHD6Qw8h6Itfvwfa1v9a2qbWNaInzmvndNy-EnMB-9nkcrNNA9zDKNGh_37F9wStcJUz-7_DYXVVc41-jHmrnbcDOewN3A0sa4RmP346I8lz2EKFuRBQ=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Lepas makan, dah ambik gambar, kami bermalas-malasan sebelum pergi mandi buat kali terakhir (<i>this is repetitive, of course everything is</i> terakhir <i>today right? lol</i>). Kami sempat main polo air dekat kolam atas. Aku pun tak faham <i>rules</i> polo air diorang ni tapi yang pastinya Atoq lantik diri sendiri jadi penjaga masa, nampak dah tak sabar nak turun. Habis mandi manda, sampai tapak khemah tengok khemah perempuan belum cabut. Ah kalau tahu tadi boleh mandi lama sikit. Tapi bagus juga sebab banyak gila barang nak kemas.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhqAHS_mFwEsr24tT20LEp3rpqmqeFuO-7NYDxm0bmXUdTngdBCzmbYuEIqb3x9krUXEtM5DRFtfjdLIwovlQi9YktQPm6Ejw8fvQzMIf_qkB3O0hbCbdURixnMt221laB97PIT_xFseR5_F-luzGRik9a7sYlbXS649Aheo-KfJ8olt56tTX2s-MMyJA" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3541" data-original-width="1992" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhqAHS_mFwEsr24tT20LEp3rpqmqeFuO-7NYDxm0bmXUdTngdBCzmbYuEIqb3x9krUXEtM5DRFtfjdLIwovlQi9YktQPm6Ejw8fvQzMIf_qkB3O0hbCbdURixnMt221laB97PIT_xFseR5_F-luzGRik9a7sYlbXS649Aheo-KfJ8olt56tTX2s-MMyJA=w360-h640" width="360" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgSU7FMCNPzvKVcJW24M3mzOu4RZppQ5Fvyveu_R93SkE6UpwhBt3brtYxy9dxawmwv_QSFAU9ZynSqJZnNKDCL-oGV3EVxeE1LXzC9IsvpOrkRm-rEzhAw-HxJngEFvIEt-WYkQ4Fbjik3dyM8QfNUVlhf7HWyRoOY0Tku2Rueeb2gl3grpldPRdJt3g" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3729" data-original-width="2098" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgSU7FMCNPzvKVcJW24M3mzOu4RZppQ5Fvyveu_R93SkE6UpwhBt3brtYxy9dxawmwv_QSFAU9ZynSqJZnNKDCL-oGV3EVxeE1LXzC9IsvpOrkRm-rEzhAw-HxJngEFvIEt-WYkQ4Fbjik3dyM8QfNUVlhf7HWyRoOY0Tku2Rueeb2gl3grpldPRdJt3g=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></span></div><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Kami akhirnya tinggalkan Kem Baha. </span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjp75IsG0D6CIGoA-ekhd2AMtBEmoMwONe9z8BwQh4evRIh4ACMXf2SqcaZDJ3ICwLoJyjCqEKFxddLxZCZR36btnfSeLNiPcNdsGABIgl9yvcZ4bKckjEmDmcqc-70nQ_GxqkH4X5OdkwUQEf61XqIyGgm9i_6ZUMDrVxyaFF6EpjMaEdeMxbvXsp31Q" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="720" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjp75IsG0D6CIGoA-ekhd2AMtBEmoMwONe9z8BwQh4evRIh4ACMXf2SqcaZDJ3ICwLoJyjCqEKFxddLxZCZR36btnfSeLNiPcNdsGABIgl9yvcZ4bKckjEmDmcqc-70nQ_GxqkH4X5OdkwUQEf61XqIyGgm9i_6ZUMDrVxyaFF6EpjMaEdeMxbvXsp31Q=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></span></div><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEheykOguKrejpTegyTGs4rU3cmDDzKg0W8uBubIDjvU0KVfnDoyR60N7HtaED2pKH_RhPK8EN03Hwhcb_wo5DauOqOxYhAKPEtNnSHAzOg7PrQ8ZIJ9mhban3edomOFQgL-KnCxc1bdhdDKbecTftnXzwabfCl_vZfus04ftMnTSxVMkPLyDlkwrtCXrA" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3805" data-original-width="2139" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEheykOguKrejpTegyTGs4rU3cmDDzKg0W8uBubIDjvU0KVfnDoyR60N7HtaED2pKH_RhPK8EN03Hwhcb_wo5DauOqOxYhAKPEtNnSHAzOg7PrQ8ZIJ9mhban3edomOFQgL-KnCxc1bdhdDKbecTftnXzwabfCl_vZfus04ftMnTSxVMkPLyDlkwrtCXrA=w360-h640" width="360" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgLhZ-uJK3WRnZ8l9jOQSSTZOcNg0S0ZHSdi2DUTBlwuNtdKDoPM2rO4B8a6eMHvM40d_trlBtWHgnf8TPdS3tDiyVmj5iGSukKorSDFcMAAGIguBmPQ3cJtusUzacAOURMQbPLFaYySSsEJC0bid0vOzhpXQGUP7Lr_90A8sV8qhjDWAeeZT7ArzOquA" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3822" data-original-width="2150" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgLhZ-uJK3WRnZ8l9jOQSSTZOcNg0S0ZHSdi2DUTBlwuNtdKDoPM2rO4B8a6eMHvM40d_trlBtWHgnf8TPdS3tDiyVmj5iGSukKorSDFcMAAGIguBmPQ3cJtusUzacAOURMQbPLFaYySSsEJC0bid0vOzhpXQGUP7Lr_90A8sV8qhjDWAeeZT7ArzOquA=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></span></div><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br />Turun nampaknya lagi senang dari mendaki. Kelmarin banyak memaki, hari ni banyak <i>eh dah sampai sini?</i> Kurang sejam kami dah sampai dekat kaki gunung. </span><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhUFDiZN48t26JcG1jMCoxIf6HgBuy4hXqHj71WU_WqRsAXS7GXCXne7W908Ebroa0NlH1RHQ7vZbazgPwg1ZtZvw_4TwtanIVm94hlDVAwv5aNPAzxPqlld2YG9jVo8nGjsRJiRat8dGHnKcj1n8v_5YQEzx8nqBTZU56XELkrn4gCuFwBpuyttKsf_w" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2952" data-original-width="1660" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhUFDiZN48t26JcG1jMCoxIf6HgBuy4hXqHj71WU_WqRsAXS7GXCXne7W908Ebroa0NlH1RHQ7vZbazgPwg1ZtZvw_4TwtanIVm94hlDVAwv5aNPAzxPqlld2YG9jVo8nGjsRJiRat8dGHnKcj1n8v_5YQEzx8nqBTZU56XELkrn4gCuFwBpuyttKsf_w=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></span></div><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiog1xK_dXJwQAECtr_cHy0sYoVL5L81H4MpsGVAw6XzTyNYoC6cCYggWWIWNGRprbpod3r7Z2B7CHJGlRF3FFr0XCd-Nl8vJatBmNf5fROW6cSSXHbRnukFrSjQjvJ2TlLusvOYrXH7vt03Nc3YL4lLlEfI00BJ8fku3pk3pyOPtGTn60UgTUBpH1PvA" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3349" data-original-width="1884" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiog1xK_dXJwQAECtr_cHy0sYoVL5L81H4MpsGVAw6XzTyNYoC6cCYggWWIWNGRprbpod3r7Z2B7CHJGlRF3FFr0XCd-Nl8vJatBmNf5fROW6cSSXHbRnukFrSjQjvJ2TlLusvOYrXH7vt03Nc3YL4lLlEfI00BJ8fku3pk3pyOPtGTn60UgTUBpH1PvA=w360-h640" width="360" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEj-BPTfGbRSSlRTMAxjrGmjihiMvfYyrra-13v6CdWv2IGcQsfFQN0DhIh1S-I0GvFkJkg-FyrV-m1F5I1oSv7wDK6gmvAwGbmZAYmtFXejx0adlQF4UOK_f7jRjXQ-jcpaCif8pC3SgWcmcTQxnB0IX609DAQWI-rQrwLS-cVL_bwigGQwJshXs4y0SA" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3618" data-original-width="2035" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEj-BPTfGbRSSlRTMAxjrGmjihiMvfYyrra-13v6CdWv2IGcQsfFQN0DhIh1S-I0GvFkJkg-FyrV-m1F5I1oSv7wDK6gmvAwGbmZAYmtFXejx0adlQF4UOK_f7jRjXQ-jcpaCif8pC3SgWcmcTQxnB0IX609DAQWI-rQrwLS-cVL_bwigGQwJshXs4y0SA=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></div><br />Mandi, tukar baju, dan solat, sekali lagi Wira <i>lowered</i> Pok Cu menjadi mangsa ulang-aling angkut kami. Mula-mula pergi ke <i>tourist</i> <i>spot</i> tempat ambik gambar. Panas gila situ jadi bila sampai je masa untuk pergi pekan Dabong, aku dan Syed plan nak cepat-cepat <i>volunteeer.</i></span><p></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://c.tenor.com/NXELVtRw4TgAAAAC/katniss-everdeen-tribute.gif" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="206" data-original-width="498" height="206" src="https://c.tenor.com/NXELVtRw4TgAAAAC/katniss-everdeen-tribute.gif" width="498" /></a></div><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Tempat seterusnya ialah restoran mi udang Che Da Mee Udang Galah. Tak pernah aku makan udang sebesar tu sebanyak tu seumur hidup aku, padahal tak order set paling besar pun. Sapek dan Adeng order set besar tu (Atoq-Jan tak kira eh sebab kongsi-kongsi). Bila sampai saja set besar tu dekat meja, satu restoran akan berpaling tengok. Haha.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Reviu?</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i><br /></i></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Harganya murah, RM15 semangkuk. Udangnya ada tiga dan saiznya besar. Untuk orang yang jarang makan udang, bagi aku cukup segar dan tak ada rasa hanyir. Aku order mi jenis mi Maggi, jadi dapat sekali serbuk Maggi kari, sedap juga bila ditambah dalam kuahnya. Kuahnya macam sup tapi sedikit pekat, seperti kuah kuetiau kung fu.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: xx-small;">[anyone ada gambar? DM. Sibuk makan lupa nak snap]</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Tapi kata Afiq tak berapa segar dan manis udangnya, tak macam di Ijok. <i>I’ll take your word Afiq, you’re the expert</i>, nanti nak tuntut bawak sana pulak.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Bila dah habis makan, jam baru pukul enam petang. Baru sebab keretapi pulang hanya akan sampai pukul sebelas setengah malam. Adeng berangkat dulu sebab dia naik bas. Aku dan Senpai cakap kat Adeng kami akan <i>check market value </i>dia selepas sebulan. Sebab katanya orang lepas kahwin makin <i>market</i> dan dia nak kahwin bulan depan. Untuk isi masa yang berbaki lima jam, kami mulakan dengan ambil gambar sekitar stesen Dabong. M</span><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">asa ni Tawakkal ‘alallah saja tinggal beg dekat stesen.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEggQjGlcdxL9Xv69FEQimxZ1Gm-CS7rCWbDLqUVIGCAgM1yxbo97uaiU9acIHVgiOb3m-O0h4YCCHxaS1OI7joWeejpBUjyddpKMY0CjenDxgTNgzT0-UGid5lv19XDVRx6YhGy90VPeOMLpYtadl49svFt6IQpk0UubrTRF7JLOB9zTSWjTqwXTlSzOQ" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3775" data-original-width="2123" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEggQjGlcdxL9Xv69FEQimxZ1Gm-CS7rCWbDLqUVIGCAgM1yxbo97uaiU9acIHVgiOb3m-O0h4YCCHxaS1OI7joWeejpBUjyddpKMY0CjenDxgTNgzT0-UGid5lv19XDVRx6YhGy90VPeOMLpYtadl49svFt6IQpk0UubrTRF7JLOB9zTSWjTqwXTlSzOQ=w360-h640" width="360" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhJqsGsNS0EyWYNzV7dczOJs85W2AD7VQehDcwsmOr8nmVIB9B0Ef0r96vsSDnjkFhVVInZTjxRRAqufEk-lqnhrfgm6PJmYznrHJJjG3yhQvoQ2TOoLjwfwTi0OuNm50sL3EcGa07AilJw7R2t0XHVvJ8XJ1mqNMkRnUI22Xpw6nlTTTM1H08DCWHkKA" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3535" data-original-width="1988" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhJqsGsNS0EyWYNzV7dczOJs85W2AD7VQehDcwsmOr8nmVIB9B0Ef0r96vsSDnjkFhVVInZTjxRRAqufEk-lqnhrfgm6PJmYznrHJJjG3yhQvoQ2TOoLjwfwTi0OuNm50sL3EcGa07AilJw7R2t0XHVvJ8XJ1mqNMkRnUI22Xpw6nlTTTM1H08DCWHkKA=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEik-QHihqYYMuguOGK7YxTkexYvKNReuxuCYSvVGV-q1xkL3JIkB2vVPC_0v6Ax_K-GT1RWroLbrIviqLsCaXdpH2vI6Xx9GQgCP9DpLTKwsruc-h8TBIvamNVCq52Jjcgfe8c4h8nkmmw4pCka-AtRSEhfdH3J82xh81iNrBzh5jAUf1ceIIv2eiqy3g" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2173" data-original-width="3864" height="360" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEik-QHihqYYMuguOGK7YxTkexYvKNReuxuCYSvVGV-q1xkL3JIkB2vVPC_0v6Ax_K-GT1RWroLbrIviqLsCaXdpH2vI6Xx9GQgCP9DpLTKwsruc-h8TBIvamNVCq52Jjcgfe8c4h8nkmmw4pCka-AtRSEhfdH3J82xh81iNrBzh5jAUf1ceIIv2eiqy3g=w640-h360" width="640" /></a></div></div><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Kebetulan ada pasar malam tapi masa pergi sana banyak barang dah habis. Jadi, </span><span style="font-family: georgia;">tak beli gapo, nok ke suasano jah. Lepas tu pergi ke padang permainan pekan Dabong. Ramai sungguh. Orang sini tak main handphone tak main Tiktok ke?</span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhqhm-4dmKdHB8YuDAcQDnhS9Pc9gr8nziA4IOJrUAtYosZB6yDDIq1yIzgC2zPSxJnc9OJVURVQLWgZLochXDq94Mlxpf1lv9uAqgDAULJ_KnaOkm7hcFLi7otftW-gGgLiqnUl02aXHhaFnoFN1D_6M0gB6p8hnbFv_i9k4Cko3qG0qfyEYeVajagVA" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3687" data-original-width="2074" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhqhm-4dmKdHB8YuDAcQDnhS9Pc9gr8nziA4IOJrUAtYosZB6yDDIq1yIzgC2zPSxJnc9OJVURVQLWgZLochXDq94Mlxpf1lv9uAqgDAULJ_KnaOkm7hcFLi7otftW-gGgLiqnUl02aXHhaFnoFN1D_6M0gB6p8hnbFv_i9k4Cko3qG0qfyEYeVajagVA=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgv3B_wxU3qMDgptceXWMdXZLc2sH3asHIK4DBFLQe7q0vyFXvYfW91zQI7pbgDCHndCoyfK-F_jq4gfI8rcmbCtQNi1Ha4lzYJMtrbm-v4ZCyOw2sy6uOPeFbM40IwiZA8LVkip-NzdtQ6EZfEOnBHxLOB2flULIEvPLTBV6p2Bnpl58pC5nLS5rgmYQ" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1547" data-original-width="2750" height="360" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgv3B_wxU3qMDgptceXWMdXZLc2sH3asHIK4DBFLQe7q0vyFXvYfW91zQI7pbgDCHndCoyfK-F_jq4gfI8rcmbCtQNi1Ha4lzYJMtrbm-v4ZCyOw2sy6uOPeFbM40IwiZA8LVkip-NzdtQ6EZfEOnBHxLOB2flULIEvPLTBV6p2Bnpl58pC5nLS5rgmYQ=w640-h360" width="640" /></a></div>Tengok kakak main <i>volleyball</i>. <i>Go</i> kakak!</span></div><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Bila dah maghrib perlahan-lahan gerak ke stesen semula. Di sana kami merempat, bergelandangan. Dalam maghrib macam tu Nisa balik ke Tanah Merah. Lepas tu main Uno Flip, tapi semua orang <i>flipped</i> sebab penat gila nak habiskan satu <i>game</i>.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Lepas tu Shimi demam balik weh. Tak logik. Atoq bukak cerita hantu, dengan <i>energy</i> yang sama macam di unggun api Kem Baha. Masa ni aku jeling je Sapek dan Syed sebab dua orang ni jenis boleh rasa-rasa juga. Acik-acik dekat bangku sebelah aku tengok tumpang dengar cerita Atoq.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgKp7J0oDrZMKimyZJa66cegBXWg0kXI57eHNvYXjgCbXa1pys3rZmkxs8KadYX4sgUtkwusj08M2Jd_VQ-xP0-gKRph76wVLJyUILptMsl7j09c8-6dFMS0yfFUHRArxT-F_mKD5-a1buJrZWov9Ici5jwKsZXETBbuu9IWj6PnGTnjgnvPZhr4aROPw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2745" data-original-width="2745" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgKp7J0oDrZMKimyZJa66cegBXWg0kXI57eHNvYXjgCbXa1pys3rZmkxs8KadYX4sgUtkwusj08M2Jd_VQ-xP0-gKRph76wVLJyUILptMsl7j09c8-6dFMS0yfFUHRArxT-F_mKD5-a1buJrZWov9Ici5jwKsZXETBbuu9IWj6PnGTnjgnvPZhr4aROPw=w320-h320" width="320" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0_8acAzT-t0deUwug7d1s7sEyUDsMglBkV96iqT0Nk3n8_puTT_FPdR-sforLHin69epMr-ZGnAoOrXZwJ81qZTLQ_W2VXWVH8Yj8gP1nMVOuomEgp5YRF3he0m9MxuPgzw8vkpGfujSq811upA9Fx_iSfMNfXXMSrHYSWckb5GeDaN0TodIDFL9wUg/s679/IMG_0876.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="679" data-original-width="679" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0_8acAzT-t0deUwug7d1s7sEyUDsMglBkV96iqT0Nk3n8_puTT_FPdR-sforLHin69epMr-ZGnAoOrXZwJ81qZTLQ_W2VXWVH8Yj8gP1nMVOuomEgp5YRF3he0m9MxuPgzw8vkpGfujSq811upA9Fx_iSfMNfXXMSrHYSWckb5GeDaN0TodIDFL9wUg/w320-h320/IMG_0876.jpg" width="320" /></a><br /><br /></span></div><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYbGwxw6mwuWKyKH8TqCZdpPpxNdXJ2ThaOPhBWV4U8GKr2B5_nyjMdU_gLNiphHuvFohuxVDTFMKFMfj3s_uKshQ4NkCBkMHl9teHWeRVMl71qjZKvIqX9lOeTzTwOb5oHg2mN-p5tacsygwnSwjbTaH_TfJm4xbhRVree_mFTtnwyHs_ksIgDbPpDg/s4032/IMG_0711.heic" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="2268" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYbGwxw6mwuWKyKH8TqCZdpPpxNdXJ2ThaOPhBWV4U8GKr2B5_nyjMdU_gLNiphHuvFohuxVDTFMKFMfj3s_uKshQ4NkCBkMHl9teHWeRVMl71qjZKvIqX9lOeTzTwOb5oHg2mN-p5tacsygwnSwjbTaH_TfJm4xbhRVree_mFTtnwyHs_ksIgDbPpDg/w360-h640/IMG_0711.heic" title="Generasi Tiktok" width="360" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">Generasi Tiktok</span></div><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Kereta api sampai dekat stesen Dabong awal sedikit dari jam sebelas setengah malam. Semua bergegas ke gerabak masing-masing. Bergerak saja kereta api, Syamel ajak pergi ke kafe. Dalam perjalanan nak ke gerabak kafe, ada satu katil yang bagasinya tercampak keluar sebab kereta api bergoncang kuat. Kakak katil sebelah selak langsirnya, muka terkejut. Aku nampak gula-gula Haribo berterabur di lantai, <i>ah ini mesti lineup aku juga ni</i>. <i>True enough</i>, begnya macam beg Senpai. Jadi aku susun semula beg ke atas katil. Sampai sana Syamel sudah ada di di meja bersama adiknya Saiful, Senpai dan Sapek. Meja sebelah Afiq, Bad, Juju, dan Didi tengah rancak bersembang. Fauzan dan Atoq di meja lagi satu.</span></p><p class="p3" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 14px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Banyak yang disembangkan malam itu tapi lima jam merempat di stesen Dabong buat aku tak boleh nak ikut perbincangan diorang betul-betul. Abang pengurus kafe pun mungkin mengantuk macam aku. Order si Syamel dia bagi pada entah siapa. Order Senpai lambat dibuat dan bila sampai sudah sejuk. Aku order satu teh O suam untuk Shimi, tapi entah diminum entah tak sebab teruk betul demamnya. Sejak masuk kereta api terus lelap di katilnya.</span></p><p class="p4" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 11px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Habis melepak, aku pergi salam dan peluk mana yang jaga lagi. Aku akan turun di Mentakab pukul lima pagi, waktu orang nyenyak tidur jadi aku nak ucap selamat tinggal siap-siap. Aku cuba kejut Shimi, memang tidur mati, dahinya berpeluh. Buat hal betullah kau Shimi. Didi suruh aku kejut dia bila aku nak turun nanti, aku iyakan saja sebab kesian pulak nak gerak. Aku panjat ke katil untuk tidur barang dua tiga jam. Bila difikirkan, aneh rasanya ucap selamat tinggal padahal masih bergerak atas kereta api yang sama.</span></p><p class="p4" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 11px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Aku bangun pukul empat lebih sebelum <i>alarm</i> berbunyi. Tak mahu tidur semula, aku lepak di ruang antara gerabak.<i> Bitter sweet.</i> Itu yang aku rasa sampailah tiba-tiba perut meragam. Kalau korang baca semula kesemua tiga bahagian jurnal trip ini, aku tak pernah cerita pasal memerut, sebab memang aku tak memerut tiga hari. Perut automatik tak nak bagi kerjasama kalau pergi <i>hiking lol. </i>Tapi aku kalau boleh tak nak memberon atas kereta api. Malas nak bersilat dalm jamban bergerak. Biar sampai stesen Mentakab baru setelkan.</span></p><p class="p4" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 11px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i></i><br /></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Dekat pukul lima, Didi <i>Whatsapp</i>. Wah gigih nak babai kita. <i>Thanks</i> Didi. Aku cakap aku tengah tahan memerut ni, nanti kat Mentakab kita jumpa untuk babai. Waktu tu dekat Kuala Krau. Habis <i>Whatsapp</i> Didi, rasa macam tak boleh tahan. Jadi pergilah juga ke tandas bergerak menabur baja, 110km/j. Semoga tanah di antara Kuala Krau dan Mentakab sentiasa subur.</span></p><p class="p3" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 14px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Sementara nak turun, aku pergi jumpa siapa yang tak sempat malam tadi. Aku kejut Atoq di katil sebelah. Selepas ucap selamat pada Atoq, tengok Shimi memang tidur mati, sian dia. Aku pergi ke katil Afiq sebab malam tadi entah mana dia pergi. Nasib baik Afiq <i>light sleeper. </i>Sampai<i> </i>stesen Mentakab, babai dengan Didi sampai kereta api bergerak semula.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p3" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 14px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Perlahan-lahan cahaya dari kereta api yang menjadi saksi pertemuan, perjalanan, dan perpisahan kami hilang dari pandangan. Tetapi buat beberapa ketika, bunyi roda besi yang meluncur di atas landasannya masih lagi hinggap di telinga. Begitulah juga pertemuan singkat kami. Walau sudah berakhir, masih ada lagi tali-tali ghaib yang mengikat kami yang menjadi janji bahawa akan ada lagi pertemuan selepas ini. <i>To more trips like this!</i></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i><br /></i></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i><br /></i></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i><br /></i></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">(to be updated) Train to Dabong: The </span><span style="font-family: georgia;">Epilogue>></span></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://ashoulderon.blogspot.com/2022/09/train-to-dabong-ii.html"><<Baca bahagian dua</a></span></p><p class="p3" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 14px;"><br /></p><p class="p3" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 14px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">____________________________________________________________________________</span></p><p class="p3" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 14px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">Bonus story</span></p><p class="p3" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 14px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">Selepas tiga hari yang bahagia kenalah sengsara pulak kan? Sampai dekat kereta, cuba buka pintu tak boleh. Aku ingat bateri kunci kereta habis. Tanya <i>station master</i>, kalau-kalau ada kunci serupa nak pinjam bateri. Lain. Kemudian dia tanya <i>kereta mana, kereta kelabu tu ke? </i>Aku iyakan. Dia cerita kereta aku lampu siling tak dipadam dari Khamis tu, bateri kereta habislah tu. Tapi tak ada pula dia offer nak <i>jump</i>-kan <span class="s1" style="font-family: "Apple Color Emoji"; font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal;">😅🥲</span></span></p><p class="p3" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 14px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p5" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">Stesen dah kosong dengan <i>station master</i> pun dah balik. Jadi tunggu siang sikit telefon abang aku datang. Lain kali nak cabut je la mentol lampu tu, bukan kali pertama lupa padamkan, tapi ini kali pertama sampai habis bateri.<i> </i>Fokus Naja, fokus!</span></p>Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-11379197926790869502022-09-29T13:02:00.006+08:002022-10-03T06:45:31.625+08:00Train to Dabong II<p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">“Bangun, bangun!”</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Suara Afiq memecah <strike>dengkuran Syed</strike> <strike> igauan Adeng</strike> kesunyian pagi. Ada garis cahaya jingga di kaki langit.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Inilah sebab kami semua di sini.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Inilah sebab kami sanggup bermusafir ke negeri asing.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Inilah sebab kami mendaki ribuan kaki.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Demi melihat sedikit bayangan syurgaMu.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px; text-align: center;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><br /></div></div></div><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Bilah-bilah matahari membelah awan menghangatkan kulit yang masih berbintik-bintik dibalut sejuknya angin pergunungan malam tadi. </span><span style="font-family: georgia;">Warna jingga yang tak jemu membahagikan malam dan siang, sedang masa terus-menerus mengalir walau seribu kudrat cuba menghentikan, masa yang tidak pernah kisah. Jadi aku kutip memori masa dalam bentuk foto dan video, kemudian aku lepaskan masa itu berlalu, kerana dia tidak memikirkan pun kita ini dalam bahagia atau pilu. Kerana cahaya itu masa dan masa ingkar dari dipenjara. Yang terakam hanya piksel-piksel cahaya palsu yang menyamar menjadi cahaya ilahi, sedang sang matahari tetaplah sembilan puluh juta batu jauhnya, bahang yang hinggap pada tubuh kita hanyalah satu bahagian dari kepanasannya, kerana Tuhan sudah mengira rahmatNya adalah antara dua titik di angkasa, merayau jauh darinya dihunjam sejuk atau dibakar teriklah akibatnya.</span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEihcCuoEquRwBoI7LEFY5lxAYR8-wHzNad5pi645YgDgx8I9RUbqMUv2y894xrvZUK4LZhBEYQRwIQ6HtWAyOnFNO56Wk46RIPwAuCYqQeozhFrsIA1aREN68Fb9wUQPV4oqkqgPDLgdTYCJfjj4f0WLPNSOlwezBuVPfZOQjgBijGphB1cmT3e7RAJgQ" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3926" data-original-width="2208" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEihcCuoEquRwBoI7LEFY5lxAYR8-wHzNad5pi645YgDgx8I9RUbqMUv2y894xrvZUK4LZhBEYQRwIQ6HtWAyOnFNO56Wk46RIPwAuCYqQeozhFrsIA1aREN68Fb9wUQPV4oqkqgPDLgdTYCJfjj4f0WLPNSOlwezBuVPfZOQjgBijGphB1cmT3e7RAJgQ=w360-h640" width="360" /></a><span style="text-align: center;"> </span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjVq_WK-ato0WNn8Yk1gH0Q7SwKZYELV4dEvY9LznyiBdY7u3AjL7yEUuue2lygyxkk1J2Eh2WAXZr9YuzN7zi9B93V8XPW1DtLMmCxGr1BTZC-73IPON8CcgdGVVeQbPchbfQu8o1-nxG2Un66YaYXX7QZ9H4SAaZAjPxy3NYoKxO2j3vh8eI4WHu0Aw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2491" data-original-width="1401" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjVq_WK-ato0WNn8Yk1gH0Q7SwKZYELV4dEvY9LznyiBdY7u3AjL7yEUuue2lygyxkk1J2Eh2WAXZr9YuzN7zi9B93V8XPW1DtLMmCxGr1BTZC-73IPON8CcgdGVVeQbPchbfQu8o1-nxG2Un66YaYXX7QZ9H4SAaZAjPxy3NYoKxO2j3vh8eI4WHu0Aw=w360-h640" width="360" /></a><span style="text-align: center;">. </span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Tetapi mata ketiga ini dalam kerabunan pun tetaplah mencari makna. Kerana apabila mata ketiga ini walaupun dibukakanNya hanya seketika dapatlah ia melihat lebih dari cahaya. Mata yang mampu merakam erti setiap rona warna hati, walau jiwa yang menjadi layarnya terlalu perlahan untuk manayangkan makna di sebalik makna. Ketika ini, saat aku menulis ini, sambil membelek-belek memori, bagai datang satu suara yang mengatakan <i>ada sesuatu yang engkau terlepas pandang</i>. Sedang yang lain merindukan awan permaidani di bumi Dabong aku merasakan yang sebaliknya. Sampai ada beberapa teman aku hubungi untuk mengesahkan kesedihan ini. Jadi aku lemparkan memori-memori ke lantai, berserakan mereka, mungkin itu yang harus aku lakukan apabila tiada bentuk, tiada corak, hanya kerawakan perasaan, kerana jika ada satu perkara yang aku belajar sedekad ini, ilham dariNya itu ada nuansa yang tidak terikat dengan kronologi.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzY_qfBj1RBQqwHJ637q4C3hiA9BTC-kpmi3p7rb3EcwWEU0dwkOkMxswJYNFmRm4bh5CUb5jfwhcr4g2WkpNmiPvMlEEfsZZ7AwA5y50ywa9CYVENltHJgH6NbcewNoBDaLu-IHqRD62HgwGHijQ8tgrB0a41dn8vIKN624LMxYmqidALyZ0alSkS-Q/s919/IMG_0775%203.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="735" data-original-width="919" height="512" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzY_qfBj1RBQqwHJ637q4C3hiA9BTC-kpmi3p7rb3EcwWEU0dwkOkMxswJYNFmRm4bh5CUb5jfwhcr4g2WkpNmiPvMlEEfsZZ7AwA5y50ywa9CYVENltHJgH6NbcewNoBDaLu-IHqRD62HgwGHijQ8tgrB0a41dn8vIKN624LMxYmqidALyZ0alSkS-Q/w640-h512/IMG_0775%203.jpg" width="640" /></a></span></div><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Termenung aku bila datang satu kefahaman yang kejam. Aku tersedar yang bayangan syurga ini sekadar satu saguhati, sebuah hadiah perpisahan, seutas loket yang di dalamnya kenangan, untuk beberapa hati yang masih leka bermain air dan bercanda, supaya dapat kami genggam apabila tiba malam-malam sunyi, memujuk hati kami yang pasti akan menangis nanti.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Sesungguhnya Tuhan itu sudah menulis semua ini seawal pertemuan, malah lebih lagi. Pengetahuannya yang melangkau masa dahulu, masa sekarang, dan masa hadapan. Demi Masa dan bumi Kelantan yang menyaksikan permulaan garis perpisahan, sedang kami masih lagi leka, Dia dan keluasan ilmuNya sudah sedia menempa loket hati ini.</span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">***</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Atoq dah bosan. Bukan stail dia hiking untuk duduk-duduk saja. Jadi dekat-dekat tengahari Pok Cu mula mengajak naik ke punca air terjun Jelawang, di pertemuan dua air terjun, satu dari gunung Ayam satu dari gunung Stong. Masing-masing masih malas lagi, belum move on dari awan karpet mungkin. Aku follow majoriti. Si gemuk Sapek dan Syed melingkar dalam khemah besar. Jenuh dipujuk-pujuk Atoq, digeleteknya Syed menggeliat-geliut macam ulat gonggok. Akhirnya berjaya. Semua pun bergerak melintas kolam air terjun Kem Baha, menaiki tebing sebelah perkampungan jin jahat katanya Atoq. Curam juga tebingnya, dalam sepuluh minit kemudian jumpa batu yang bertindih membentuk terowong/gua. Ada tangga dan tali sudah dipasang di dalamnya memudahkan kami meneruskan pendakian.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLc_htsScIPvDR2ugQ1cV95h1QvFv6dQSk2CjjkhoRQsK99nf3fYMixLJ3PHsXoab0Ri-7tJtHao1UukNfUBX5DkqIMSJez6rdJ_xCLX8EY9ViRmW7L083JN_uz5XzxfmFH4qY3InKMYBuwTKGN4JkiLFwAbAqJg8rMJOr-I2ElDZ7025NiCXJ6SGQCg/s3754/IMG_0440%202.heic" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3754" data-original-width="2112" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLc_htsScIPvDR2ugQ1cV95h1QvFv6dQSk2CjjkhoRQsK99nf3fYMixLJ3PHsXoab0Ri-7tJtHao1UukNfUBX5DkqIMSJez6rdJ_xCLX8EY9ViRmW7L083JN_uz5XzxfmFH4qY3InKMYBuwTKGN4JkiLFwAbAqJg8rMJOr-I2ElDZ7025NiCXJ6SGQCg/w225-h400/IMG_0440%202.heic" width="225" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdfBAAoObxRrI0-QzO19pWyvDAf7Z3EfuGYcqQM9ozmOSF34kNwc-qyxbGtq79lGZosDs8c93m9jdJMBB-ozpwGZ9tjP6czZzxMOSK3tcnc5zK8RcuJcJEcLLoGU85wIWKNK1dxrogGQ2kTCBNxbAL5ZcJVcq5Y6qKgo7Z_uq7Jh4CzgKpjDQLdAWpcQ/s1472/IMG_0810.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1472" data-original-width="828" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdfBAAoObxRrI0-QzO19pWyvDAf7Z3EfuGYcqQM9ozmOSF34kNwc-qyxbGtq79lGZosDs8c93m9jdJMBB-ozpwGZ9tjP6czZzxMOSK3tcnc5zK8RcuJcJEcLLoGU85wIWKNK1dxrogGQ2kTCBNxbAL5ZcJVcq5Y6qKgo7Z_uq7Jh4CzgKpjDQLdAWpcQ/w225-h400/IMG_0810.jpg" width="225" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Selepas satu lagi pendakian bertali, treknya keluar dari hutan dan bertindih dengan sungai semula. Ada yang berhati-hati meniti di atas perbatuan, ada yang terus meranduk air.</span></span></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEggWjc-Wm8S2ClhY2V1v3K6w6VHr9tmtWVSq2FjBv1l8Y9vT0lUJweNcW_ZDcePtJRI9wD-tVu_KzBEErVrPPsLhq0Jk69WSF50uNu7n9IuMUqVadBr5i1ZW1Px6SCnaWoTvUu1ecXGDvGJqPoOP8ziZHV8UORjOM_HSWRTXvo9UcEIcmiiOYZLTV2OWg/s1472/IMG_0812.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1472" data-original-width="828" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEggWjc-Wm8S2ClhY2V1v3K6w6VHr9tmtWVSq2FjBv1l8Y9vT0lUJweNcW_ZDcePtJRI9wD-tVu_KzBEErVrPPsLhq0Jk69WSF50uNu7n9IuMUqVadBr5i1ZW1Px6SCnaWoTvUu1ecXGDvGJqPoOP8ziZHV8UORjOM_HSWRTXvo9UcEIcmiiOYZLTV2OWg/w360-h640/IMG_0812.jpg" width="360" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Tak lama kemudian kami nampak cabang dua sungai yang dicari. Cabang yang kiri air terjunnya dibingkai pokok-pokok yang tunduk ke arah air. Cabang yang kanan menjulang tinggi, ada batu-batu besar yang terpasak pada celah batu yang lebih besar sehingga air yang deras mengalir di celahan mereka nampak seperti tali air sahaja. Ada satu kolam di atas tempat Didi dan Nisa berendam. Di bawah mereka, ada satu lagi kolam kecil di bawah tempat kami yang lelaki bermandi manda, hmm, sedikit masin airnya hmmm 🤔</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Yang lelaki kemudiannya mendaki ke sungai yang kanan. Ada jurang di celahan batu yang memerangkap air sungai, membentuk air terjun berkolam cetek. Titis-titis air menyerak cahaya matahari menjadi pelangi di hujung sebatang kayu yang menjadi titi tempat kami bertenggek. Afiq dan Atoq mengepalai sesi bergambar. Boleh tahan belia juga orang tua ni.<i> </i></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i><br /></i></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i><br /></i></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i></i></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOO75wXmhb7WrrijL8a3guemEx68cjlsrjxXI_utawEZZSVKFWe2Mm7l4xzl47Bxg1rLlGt1tL8EkFHs75Qly92aT6wnmApw4AxeX-CC0dFrPfIb0HJNn7d0FmIghvEBF4TZyWVEwcVCZtnc68uzpjrgsWwWJg7Cwpf4G4nzzd4Tn_e-V1_dl0CU8QrQ/s1280/IMG_0797.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="720" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOO75wXmhb7WrrijL8a3guemEx68cjlsrjxXI_utawEZZSVKFWe2Mm7l4xzl47Bxg1rLlGt1tL8EkFHs75Qly92aT6wnmApw4AxeX-CC0dFrPfIb0HJNn7d0FmIghvEBF4TZyWVEwcVCZtnc68uzpjrgsWwWJg7Cwpf4G4nzzd4Tn_e-V1_dl0CU8QrQ/w360-h640/IMG_0797.jpg" width="360" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6BYyagTnFFI9p85ZTujqRByoG-oh5gGMM30jGP-lCo5LDB5X_N1ycfRTL-t006o08QLy7gA61b9gAMcqdm9K3Mlr0G73dCDYgMIrTF7ibddIvvAozJD5EAMb6E-Kxqemoih3Hyz-ZSFqmIKf3QW7IXjqKxzBrje6s3Tt2zVlhvQaImZXVzKusigLgig/s1227/IMG_0802.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1227" data-original-width="690" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6BYyagTnFFI9p85ZTujqRByoG-oh5gGMM30jGP-lCo5LDB5X_N1ycfRTL-t006o08QLy7gA61b9gAMcqdm9K3Mlr0G73dCDYgMIrTF7ibddIvvAozJD5EAMb6E-Kxqemoih3Hyz-ZSFqmIKf3QW7IXjqKxzBrje6s3Tt2zVlhvQaImZXVzKusigLgig/w360-h640/IMG_0802.jpg" width="360" /></a></i></span></div><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i>Snap, snap, snap</i> 📸</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Selesai bergambar, bersidai-sidai di tebing, masa untuk turun. Atoq, Jan, Bad, dan aku shoot ke bawah. Sebab tak pasti apa plan Pok Cu, kami bersidai di kolam air Kem Baha. Bila lagi masa yang sesuai nak main gelungsur kalau bukan bila ramai-ramai sudah di sini? Selepas trip Padang Batu, aku jadi berani sikit nak buat benda-benda ekstrem. Sikit. Masih tak seberani Afiq yang jadi orang pertama mencuba. Tapi aku jadi cuak bila Syed yang pandai berenang dan suka <i>diving</i> pun nampak cuak. Aksi gelungsur Syed dilengkapkan dengan jeritan, "I did it!!!" Terhambur ketawa dari semua.</span><span style="font-family: georgia;"> </span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Selepas dipujuk-pujuk, akhirnya aku bersetuju untuk naik ke atas gelengsur. Tergelincir pada mulanya, kalau aku percaya hal khurafat, itu satu petanda tak baik. Tapi dah naik malu la nak patah balik. Selepas berkira-kira, basmalah dibaca walau hati sedang memaki diri sebab tumpas dengan pujukan Afiq dan...zup!!! Selesai. Sekali cukup. </span><span style="font-family: georgia;">Selepas itu satu persatu join. Didi terjun. Juju dan Nisa terjun. Senpai terjun. Shimi sampai kesudah tak terjun walau dicabar-cabar Adeng. Haha. Sesi menggelungsur hari tu ditamatkan dengan aksi berani Pok Cu; bukan dengan berbaring tetapi berdiri. Gila.</span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Dalam kami bergelak ketawa suka, riuh-riuh dan buih-buih di air kolam ini rupa-rupanya membawa makna yang sukar untuk seseorang. Sepertinya dunia ini umpama lukisan abstrak, yang bebas untuk ditafsirkan sebagaimanapun, bukan oleh mata kepala, tetapi mata hati. Ada hati yang gembira, ada hati yang luka, ada hati yang sudah berparut, ada hati yang mahu melupakan. Jenis-jenis hati ini menjadi penuras rasa, lantas apa yang terzahir bukan selalunya sama seperti yang dirasakan.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Siang itu siang malas-malas. Menu makan tengahari ayam masak kicap. Shimi tak hadir <i>lunch</i> sebab demam. Petangnya bermain Uno Flip (<i>urgh we hate it! lol</i>). Makan malam ayam masak rendang. </span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhl0bCArUA4P_fz8MHpZ3riT7kFQgevvBjGP1mbuKZGQCAEr0pB7OGzhjHo5hgbvBOp6IuJHnbdS2p2l5yOtjNJd-HyJBwCsQ1EAer5Bb-QYZmK1qx1CSnMg5NYoDHOja_Z8t5PCzvHSgZP91bqrBNr1Q3yP-4RdnIQ1BvcpahTeF121hcRZlvZ6zIoCQ/s1279/IMG_0769%202.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="1279" height="300" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhl0bCArUA4P_fz8MHpZ3riT7kFQgevvBjGP1mbuKZGQCAEr0pB7OGzhjHo5hgbvBOp6IuJHnbdS2p2l5yOtjNJd-HyJBwCsQ1EAer5Bb-QYZmK1qx1CSnMg5NYoDHOja_Z8t5PCzvHSgZP91bqrBNr1Q3yP-4RdnIQ1BvcpahTeF121hcRZlvZ6zIoCQ/w400-h300/IMG_0769%202.jpg" width="400" /></a></span></div><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Kemudiannya kami berkumpul di keliling unggun api, bakar marshmallow dan makan smores. Ada yang duduk di atas tikar. Ada yang berdiri. Sapek dan Didi bersembang tentang entah apa. Aku duduk sebelah Afiq di atas sepotong atap besi yang kami jadikan alas duduk, sambil aku bertanyakan dia soalan-soalan personal hiks. Adeng jadi DJ menunaikan permintaan lagu, sama sekali tak menjangkakan suasano malam ini akan berubah 180 darjah.</span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><i>True to Syed’s fashion</i>, Syed tiba-tiba meminta Atoq bercerita pasal kejadian ngeri yang berlaku padanya pada hujung tahun lepas. Cerita tentang berada di tengah-tengah bala kepala air di Kenaboi, cerita bencana yang dilupakan kerana negara sedang kecoh dengan banjir besar di Selangor. Aku ada dengar-dengar sinopsis kisah Atoq sebelum ini, tetapi meleset sekali jangkaan aku akan skala kemusnahan dan penderitaan yang sebenarnya. I was one of them guilty of judging a book by it’s cover. Sekali-sekali ada Syed dan Adeng mencelah, tapi kebanyakannya hanya Atoq dan gerak tangannya yang berbicara. Cemas, lega, sedih, takut. Itu yang aku rasakan dan aku yakin yang lain pun sama. </span><span style="font-family: georgia;">Waktu Atoq mengisahkan bagaimana dirinya dipanggil-panggil air bah, bagaimana peringatan dari si isteri supaya memanggil nama Tuhan yang menariknya kembali dari kepastian mati, dada ini rasa penuh dengan sebak.</span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEh2LZ8NJswCbuo2ma9ncXDRymIR73kWY67iJq2z_MF0Yw9nXZWzdIULy-Er5FjNTbjhkwT8r9rEbb6BitTTsPD7QIU0VIVI-vhHDxw5RBC01hrutIsFkFu4aMtUnuvibtfak2760WzOAiUQSqTdqzbCiAqR-Xuk16u3Ev6dcxP7uZuFAyM1BXVroB302Q" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2834" data-original-width="3778" height="480" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEh2LZ8NJswCbuo2ma9ncXDRymIR73kWY67iJq2z_MF0Yw9nXZWzdIULy-Er5FjNTbjhkwT8r9rEbb6BitTTsPD7QIU0VIVI-vhHDxw5RBC01hrutIsFkFu4aMtUnuvibtfak2760WzOAiUQSqTdqzbCiAqR-Xuk16u3Ev6dcxP7uZuFAyM1BXVroB302Q=w640-h480" width="640" /></a></div><br /><br /></span></div></div><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Dalam samar-samar cahaya unggun api yang tenggelam timbul, aku tak berani untuk berpaling melihat wajah-wajah yang mendengar. Kerana aku sendiri tak dapat menyorokkan dari wajah aku, yang aku sedang merasakan betapa kerdilnya manusia. </span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Betapa kita semua masih bernafas semata-mata kerana rahmatNya. </span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Betapa jika Alam mahu menghancurkan kita, dia mampu. </span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Betapa bila kita ditelanjangkan dari kefanaan dunia, cukup pakai, cukup makan dan minum itu cukup.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Habis sesi unggun api, masing-masing mula menyiapkan tempat tidur. Angin malam Kem Baha masih lagi sejuk tetapi ada semacam kehangatan yang terawangan, dibakar cerita derita. Aku lawat Shimi sekejap di khemah Atoq-Fauzan, sepanjang malam dia berkelubung, demamnya yang siang tadi datang semula. Aku beri Shimi satu petua yang aku pernah cuba. Selubung seluruh badan kecuali kaki yang bersarung stoking lembab, datang pagi demamnya patut hilang apabila stoking itu kering.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjAU88WAJ0BmQSELa_LPzWwmqnfKTarfAfm9FtI67xn1w6jxNHXvXrOWb6dJ_CTh7zf3o1HHU2XrSVkNXAeUVp1nyLtfdtMaW_e5QIhYQVbXt_CHDwDGHkOuHLhjbwET621Isg69c3jBZcqfeptjSBvABhLPSQgDzG2FWG0PpVVLKan2aCBYNLzDtxH8g" style="font-family: Times; font-size: medium; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2268" data-original-width="4032" height="360" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjAU88WAJ0BmQSELa_LPzWwmqnfKTarfAfm9FtI67xn1w6jxNHXvXrOWb6dJ_CTh7zf3o1HHU2XrSVkNXAeUVp1nyLtfdtMaW_e5QIhYQVbXt_CHDwDGHkOuHLhjbwET621Isg69c3jBZcqfeptjSBvABhLPSQgDzG2FWG0PpVVLKan2aCBYNLzDtxH8g=w640-h360" width="640" /></a></div><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; text-align: left;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Malam ini berbeza. <i>It was the last night before everything spin on its head, even when it took me awhile to realize it</i>. Cerita-cerita yang aku dengar, manusia-manusia yang aku perhatikan, dan perasaan yang pada hemat aku mengubah perspektif aku tentang terlalu banyak perkara, terlalu banyak untuk mereka berlaku dalam waktu yang sama. Terlalu sulit untuk aku tulis tetapi menulis aku perlu, walaupun hanya sebaris dua ayat yang kriptik ini.</span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Aku pulang ke khemah besar. Unggun api masih menyala. Atoq dan Saiful masih duduk di tepinya, membentuk bayang-bayang panjang yang meliuk-liuk ke dalam khemah, menghipnosis aku ke alam tidur.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://ashoulderon.blogspot.com/2022/09/train-to-dabong-iii.html" target="_blank">Bersambung di bahagian tiga>></a></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><a href="https://ashoulderon.blogspot.com/2022/09/train-to-dabong-1.html" target="_blank"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><< Baca bahagian satu</span></a></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p>Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-44016888917198173812022-09-28T21:46:00.005+08:002022-10-03T06:36:22.561+08:00Train to Dabong I<p><span style="font-family: georgia;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Perjalanan Mentakab-Dabong-Mentakab adalah antara satu perjalanan yang paling bermakna dalam kehidupan dewasa aku yang tak ingin aku ulang.</span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Bukan kerana aku tidak sukakan kereta api, bahkan bagi aku tiada kenderaan yang lebih mengujakan.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Bukanlah kerana jarak perjalanannya yang panjang, malah ada yang merantau sejauh Selangor dan negara Johor.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Bukan kerana perlu mengangkat beban, kerana ada yang mengheret bagasi yang jauh lebih berat.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Bukanlah kerana mereka yang aku jumpa dan berjumpa kembali adalah mereka yang aku tidak berkenan, malah jika hilang seorang tidak lengkaplah perjalanan ini.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Tetapi kerana pada epilog perjalanan ini, terbit rasa-rasa yang tidak sempat aku hadamkan semasa dan di antara masa kami bergelak tawa, di senggang waktu kami makan tidur, makan tidur, dan makan tidur lagi. </span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Malah tulisan ini adalah satu percubaan untuk aku menyusun kembali fikiran dan perasaan yang datang tak diundang, satu prakata untuk memahami prarasa tentang sesuatu yang masih janggal untuk aku kategorikan sebagai apa.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Untuk tiga hari yang bebas dan santai, dari mana entah datang rasa yang berat ini. Mungkin tidak seberat perasaan usai pertemuan singkat di Genting Highland tak seberapa lama dulu (yang aku masih dan tidak rasa boleh untuk terjemahkan dalam karangan) tetapi ya, berat. <i>I’m thinking as I write this down</i>, jadi pada waktu ini aku berfikir bagaimana harus aku menulis tanpa melukakan hati sesiapa, aku juga tidak tahu jika ia cukup bermakna untuk siapa-siapa yang membaca tulisan ini pun. Boleh jadi aku yang terlampau melayan perasaan.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Sebelum aku terus menulis tulisan yang tersirat, baiklah aku bagi sedikit konteks, apa siapa bila mana.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Seawal bulan Jun, Afiq dah mula mengajak-ajak pergi panjat Gunung Stong dalam <i>group</i> Whatsapp kami. Syed okay nak ikut tapi sebab sibuk dengan kerja dia sekadar bagi tarikh yang boleh dan tidak boleh. Aku dan Shimi okey saja nak ulang daki,<i> </i>kami pernah pergi April 2018. Mulanya Ogos, ubah tarikh beberapa kali sampai nekad mesti jadi naik bulan September. Mulalah cari guide dan tiket keretapi, buat <i>dedicated Whatsapp group</i>. Tapi tiket kereta api buat hal.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Tarikh yang itu Syed tak <i>free</i>, tarikh yang ni tiket habis, tarikh sekian <i>long weekend</i> sek demo dah borong habis tiket. Jadi akhirnya set pergi hari kerja, Khamis 22 September, balik Sabtu malam 24 September supaya Ahad boleh rehat di sarang masing-masing, tak payahlah minta cuti. Selesai satu masalah.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Kemudian, sebab satu guide boleh bawak tujuh orang maksimum, rancangan trip bujang</span><span style="font-family: georgia;"> 4 orang tukar jadi 7 orang. </span><span style="font-family: georgia;">Akhir sekali jadi trip 14 orang,</span><span class="Apple-converted-space" style="font-family: georgia;"> </span><span style="font-family: georgia;">naik ramai-ramai bolehlah kurangkan sikit kos <i>guide</i> dan makanan. Jujur kata takut juga masa Afiq cadang tambah orang sebab program pun santai habis, plan gitu-gitu je. Tiket kereta api pun terhad. </span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Mula-mula ajak Fauzan kemudian naturally Atoqlah. Bila dah jadi 14 orang, masing-masing mula cari kawan nak bawa sekali. <i>Worlds gonna collide. And I’m terrified and scared all at once. You know, introvert things</i>. Beberapa <i>personal DM</i> kemudian, Afiq bawak Senpai, aku Sapek, Syed bawak Syamel (ganti Sarah Ritha). Lagi Afiq ajak Didi, Juju dan wife Nisa, lepas tu Adeng, dan Saiful adik Sarah.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Seperti biasa selepas merungut barang apa nak pek, nak ke stesen kereta api naik apa, ada yang tersilap tarikh, akhirnya sampai juga tarikh 22 September. Lega aku tak naik dari Gemas, lambat sikit dapat catuan.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i>On board</i> empat pagi dekat Mentakab, janggal sikit pertama kali naik keretapi lama, katilnya pula macam tidur dalam keranda bergerak. Aku <i>officially</i> jumpa yang lain lepas tidur ayam sekejap dan bangkit waktu Subuh. Oh, nak ambil wuduk dalam keretapi ni kena kreatif sikit ya kalau tak nak masuk lubang jamban. <i>And I literally can’t make out where I should face while aiming at the crap hole, to the amusement of my fellow friends when I told them later at the cafe.</i></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEi2GRAW3xgvwaBPnWlapTOBbE6VAv-P27Z1ZQXOiW7rbT2v0EVn2DgF_59rjrymH95QKT3R-nnD58nY3uVnvgO677Ke1TQ-BGVSzaPuaAaNTSSHV6v_Z85EloLKOo00iijNQyZAgSjvgK8bI8wr1Io_M5WUqvKt3OgfwtXyzYWeCW_nvtG7xLH4gfkaTw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><br class="Apple-interchange-newline" /></a><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEi2GRAW3xgvwaBPnWlapTOBbE6VAv-P27Z1ZQXOiW7rbT2v0EVn2DgF_59rjrymH95QKT3R-nnD58nY3uVnvgO677Ke1TQ-BGVSzaPuaAaNTSSHV6v_Z85EloLKOo00iijNQyZAgSjvgK8bI8wr1Io_M5WUqvKt3OgfwtXyzYWeCW_nvtG7xLH4gfkaTw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhlb6nbg2Ij8zQUdBi5SrS-Z7Q2EgCDco9VzYWInWeqO54QJz2VLBOH7MGd6_Roamfb3vxGTEAksNXH4QkxJEqnU3ecw0b5bMOTjRqgF3cq_sTh6vO-7qxquAJk4ll10Xe-CKru3Y3h0TT6tMPd-ZHVf9eamjLtd0SOmROwzKyHWWSmxMy2N9PnEyCYyw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3425" data-original-width="1927" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhlb6nbg2Ij8zQUdBi5SrS-Z7Q2EgCDco9VzYWInWeqO54QJz2VLBOH7MGd6_Roamfb3vxGTEAksNXH4QkxJEqnU3ecw0b5bMOTjRqgF3cq_sTh6vO-7qxquAJk4ll10Xe-CKru3Y3h0TT6tMPd-ZHVf9eamjLtd0SOmROwzKyHWWSmxMy2N9PnEyCYyw=w225-h400" width="225" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEi2GRAW3xgvwaBPnWlapTOBbE6VAv-P27Z1ZQXOiW7rbT2v0EVn2DgF_59rjrymH95QKT3R-nnD58nY3uVnvgO677Ke1TQ-BGVSzaPuaAaNTSSHV6v_Z85EloLKOo00iijNQyZAgSjvgK8bI8wr1Io_M5WUqvKt3OgfwtXyzYWeCW_nvtG7xLH4gfkaTw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"> <img alt="" data-original-height="1472" data-original-width="828" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEi2GRAW3xgvwaBPnWlapTOBbE6VAv-P27Z1ZQXOiW7rbT2v0EVn2DgF_59rjrymH95QKT3R-nnD58nY3uVnvgO677Ke1TQ-BGVSzaPuaAaNTSSHV6v_Z85EloLKOo00iijNQyZAgSjvgK8bI8wr1Io_M5WUqvKt3OgfwtXyzYWeCW_nvtG7xLH4gfkaTw=w225-h400" width="225" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhyOudbMpVe-yb1x-rLqC-ZTodTcD1hT5mfmBvvb4Fpl1REtZKkubnrs3FbK950UUgay3JFz9VS86zoL9hcvsfAKirWtOR4GILVIk354gFYvm7Bjspm-8DApnpTo7GwDftzgFecPBuvPpUzEIsk41Kz7GAVcLLXsKp1a5jRYVE93WYmPVe_D-yKyR8y-w" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1472" data-original-width="828" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhyOudbMpVe-yb1x-rLqC-ZTodTcD1hT5mfmBvvb4Fpl1REtZKkubnrs3FbK950UUgay3JFz9VS86zoL9hcvsfAKirWtOR4GILVIk354gFYvm7Bjspm-8DApnpTo7GwDftzgFecPBuvPpUzEIsk41Kz7GAVcLLXsKp1a5jRYVE93WYmPVe_D-yKyR8y-w=w225-h400" width="225" /></a></div><br /></span></span></div><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Kami lepak dekat kafe dari gelap sampai cerah, order minum pun cukup syarat supaya tak kena jeling dengan penumpang lain haha. Mula dari situ, dah tak berapa nak risau pasal tentatif dan <i>chemistry</i>. J<i>ust like the momentum of the train, the conversation at the cafe propel us through the rest of the trip</i>. Semua orang masuk dengan semua orang, <i>I couldn’t ask for a better line up</i>. Habis lepak dekat kafe, sesi bergambar pun bermula. Masing-masing tak berani (baca: skema) nak buka pintu ambil video estetik takut kena maki dengan staf. <i>Quoting Shimi, who’s care! Snap </i>jugalah gambar dan video dari balik kaca, berlari keluar masuk dekat stesen Gua Musang. Bermisai berjembut pun rasa macam budak-budak balik.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhVJH1O1A-Fr_G115kx1PUjYlxQ3V6r-9MAHz83TYahiHOOkfpp69gBD3dUCJVHVqCWpt1eCrxnYnzmFzOSaoAH6d5vJRK1HiMASRmz1E_QUNnXeVl_6LuTd0UZcsEIV5Pg30ZODQVEA1y3yzYsq2oQLk5zLCP1TQboZ2MVacTM7HA8eS_ljtzZquZFIQ" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3862" data-original-width="2172" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhVJH1O1A-Fr_G115kx1PUjYlxQ3V6r-9MAHz83TYahiHOOkfpp69gBD3dUCJVHVqCWpt1eCrxnYnzmFzOSaoAH6d5vJRK1HiMASRmz1E_QUNnXeVl_6LuTd0UZcsEIV5Pg30ZODQVEA1y3yzYsq2oQLk5zLCP1TQboZ2MVacTM7HA8eS_ljtzZquZFIQ=w360-h640" width="360" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgd9_FcMCNWlx8UufDRk6IwL6hpF0V7SN61hGtb6ny_-CZC9EWCj9EiuY5Um_NYxJ0C_9HE6rF60ur8ncB-3wA40aiqvTPe5eMYbaTop1petIxRdmw47NAg6O91_kR7N0c_KuULrR-5sbbGjJj0SCDXxYt5OQ_Fl4QH6IIQqudugHID6ruURy33XHQ77A" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="2268" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgd9_FcMCNWlx8UufDRk6IwL6hpF0V7SN61hGtb6ny_-CZC9EWCj9EiuY5Um_NYxJ0C_9HE6rF60ur8ncB-3wA40aiqvTPe5eMYbaTop1petIxRdmw47NAg6O91_kR7N0c_KuULrR-5sbbGjJj0SCDXxYt5OQ_Fl4QH6IIQqudugHID6ruURy33XHQ77A=w360-h640" width="360" /></a> </span></div></div></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhWLuA1gLorLTFScdCSie--L9WoBXbIvTiW38BfDiSw1UIIBHTA3nIAIX12pehOV956RnUpe9MKcLLLaN9ByktfcjJ3xrm0mZ4UoPHKxQ1xcchZA_XIutKWd9dpiE-Wx-u-Xc3tuo7Z9OPD24dPxaXFHqTTW1A7zphmM3Z_u7H0R0wGDOC2IB4KWA5IoA" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="2268" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhWLuA1gLorLTFScdCSie--L9WoBXbIvTiW38BfDiSw1UIIBHTA3nIAIX12pehOV956RnUpe9MKcLLLaN9ByktfcjJ3xrm0mZ4UoPHKxQ1xcchZA_XIutKWd9dpiE-Wx-u-Xc3tuo7Z9OPD24dPxaXFHqTTW1A7zphmM3Z_u7H0R0wGDOC2IB4KWA5IoA=w360-h640" width="360" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhx7NixVEYLqPzHxgjtm2J6eTmETNhAGC5KOf8uKJDjTU7Yqp9YHYx-w_Z8zpvfDV83ht1q6W6c3AssH9CWDCGePOIfn-nYKl0N7UvDt-eKcN5PvAPkoP7RYWw4LZwO3eY7IqC9KRV67aJG-Md5iWuOy4RahfPIERm-pCEHS-uxkw6ARZA7Qx5euuN9TA" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="2268" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhx7NixVEYLqPzHxgjtm2J6eTmETNhAGC5KOf8uKJDjTU7Yqp9YHYx-w_Z8zpvfDV83ht1q6W6c3AssH9CWDCGePOIfn-nYKl0N7UvDt-eKcN5PvAPkoP7RYWw4LZwO3eY7IqC9KRV67aJG-Md5iWuOy4RahfPIERm-pCEHS-uxkw6ARZA7Qx5euuN9TA=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></div><br /> </span></div></div><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Sampai Dabong, bergambar lagi, sarapan lagi, tapau <i>lunch</i> sambil tunggu Nisa sampai. Kereta <i>guide</i> kemudiannya ulang-alik angkut kami yang empat belas orang ke kaki gunung Stong. Wira <i>lowered</i> milik <i>guide</i> Pok Cu gagah lagi jadi keldai kami. Dalam kereta, Atoq adalah bersembang dengan Pok Cu pasal hujan, pasal kepala air <i>etc.</i> Aku dengan Jan dekat belakang ketawa kecil sebab tok pehe sekagho boh yo oyak gapo! Belum boleh <i>tune in</i> lagi dengan suasano dan loghat Klate hehe.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><br /></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"> <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgGXr4IhbqpSheduD3uf68NLPNZIkJCr86Fjc7pi6RHUPjp0hmzjy8P8I-AEap7JJbYa9AeXjmoNtQHcsB-tCB4YOewZsoGFoxDY-lULTgMS6_CAWb23YzJNCwLQkAaSjwD1F5e44_pdRfLuxZHHnZUK8LqFPpjFYpfZ3rIUa2LE0aQ3DiuwQf1wnenrg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3356" data-original-width="1888" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgGXr4IhbqpSheduD3uf68NLPNZIkJCr86Fjc7pi6RHUPjp0hmzjy8P8I-AEap7JJbYa9AeXjmoNtQHcsB-tCB4YOewZsoGFoxDY-lULTgMS6_CAWb23YzJNCwLQkAaSjwD1F5e44_pdRfLuxZHHnZUK8LqFPpjFYpfZ3rIUa2LE0aQ3DiuwQf1wnenrg=w360-h640" width="360" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhzZxtNIS16DsIGkYv5QSIFnoian9T98uMcCHtoPq0kEO8mzFZMPAs0aGQGcRj7cWqxykcy0MFKWw40CcWsCReH1FLF387i-NmZcia1Z5ZvJqKhF6WHOMeiDmPy3O3ellOA-yrOHFL9iXDhCK8VxuYqclTgD8mw9G4st01A9JbK0dih_gbxn7TRR6LG0A" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3042" data-original-width="1711" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhzZxtNIS16DsIGkYv5QSIFnoian9T98uMcCHtoPq0kEO8mzFZMPAs0aGQGcRj7cWqxykcy0MFKWw40CcWsCReH1FLF387i-NmZcia1Z5ZvJqKhF6WHOMeiDmPy3O3ellOA-yrOHFL9iXDhCK8VxuYqclTgD8mw9G4st01A9JbK0dih_gbxn7TRR6LG0A=w360-h640" width="360" /></a><span style="font-size: xx-small;">Pose abam-abam sikit eheh</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;"><br /></span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjgakSxCUwryrS0GNmjstWvl1pYAPLY9v3QmkldjLkPjO33OFY_Q7D7uuwszKPy22qNp8bScTebda-6DQlqa8dbUBjymv1NvpJZqWtrUnM2l0TDeVOyYuDVNZQ1L_52iD37aun_Y9imYTSl-Y7MRAxgenk5RfCdhiC11Xongs_hj_sazsJ2Je1g6SA83Q" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2226" data-original-width="3958" height="360" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjgakSxCUwryrS0GNmjstWvl1pYAPLY9v3QmkldjLkPjO33OFY_Q7D7uuwszKPy22qNp8bScTebda-6DQlqa8dbUBjymv1NvpJZqWtrUnM2l0TDeVOyYuDVNZQ1L_52iD37aun_Y9imYTSl-Y7MRAxgenk5RfCdhiC11Xongs_hj_sazsJ2Je1g6SA83Q=w640-h360" width="640" /></a></div> </div></div><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Siap tukar baju, pakai kasut, susun balik catuan, pendakian pun dimulakan dengan taklimat dan bacaan doa. Selepas menyelusur resort dekat kaki gunung, gunung Stong tak segan silu bagi trek mencanak. <i>Oh crap</i>. Aku salah ingat ke tahap kesukarannya? Shimi pun nampak tak larat masa mula-mula.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Aku bukan risaukan trek mencanak, aku risau kena carut dengan Sapek, Syamel, dan Syed sebab masa naik Gunung Datok sebulan lepas aku cakap Stong senang banyak dari Datok.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEi__EdXmU5ekimu4djKyirP7N0mck6tcKhHH6PefXihMRDxYiy9ufSS9Hx5vKj1XjXXGMSy5LYiiASRCs41L1LG1y8VpjniBeGkGbu8qyNZUWAmpeV0WV84FXDZX8-FEtGusQRTJ31-EjNhpzaSvzRuD49yeW_ldEKErGP_jmMjJIG9x1dfblVgrmQOYg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="593" data-original-width="1054" height="360" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEi__EdXmU5ekimu4djKyirP7N0mck6tcKhHH6PefXihMRDxYiy9ufSS9Hx5vKj1XjXXGMSy5LYiiASRCs41L1LG1y8VpjniBeGkGbu8qyNZUWAmpeV0WV84FXDZX8-FEtGusQRTJ31-EjNhpzaSvzRuD49yeW_ldEKErGP_jmMjJIG9x1dfblVgrmQOYg=w640-h360" width="640" /></a></span></div><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /><br /></span><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Nasib baik <i>guide</i> dan <i>sweeper</i> sejenis melayan je. Katanya, dekat mana berehat dekat situ la <i>checkpoint</i>. Hilang jugalah lelah lepas rehat panjang di <i>checkpoint 1</i>, sambil ambil gambar masa melintas batuan air terjun. Terima kasih dekat geng<i> sweeper</i>, Afiq Syed Sapek Didi Nisa sebab ambil <i>your own sweet time</i> hehehe.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgVfD-xC5kFKRvAX2WlW4AhidcKlqNw6ivub-g3l8hrKjjF85jSFCRZLQDc6hMdnPZjoPbw54f2pfk6URF29q8GgbUk1DbWQvkRrSNwZXiRegx8EW6vDDarLPuUu84Ul9tk_Cjz4FO8Uym5NxLnEvkO_G5EehnaVJNLBQI1p_nyA0Y6FI2GQrsGnmjtTQ" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3042" data-original-width="1711" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgVfD-xC5kFKRvAX2WlW4AhidcKlqNw6ivub-g3l8hrKjjF85jSFCRZLQDc6hMdnPZjoPbw54f2pfk6URF29q8GgbUk1DbWQvkRrSNwZXiRegx8EW6vDDarLPuUu84Ul9tk_Cjz4FO8Uym5NxLnEvkO_G5EehnaVJNLBQI1p_nyA0Y6FI2GQrsGnmjtTQ=w360-h640" width="360" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgDB6qPNN-1PD3-9ODEOhtpEbhCXThJ6T6wkHexcp4C4TKTwmnZ2ERv6-W1SV89vhRYwmMaVKD8Hj0BNazJwbOcI8nG9wJnJjSHhYmH-6ceJ7MgwGQnb_PsP8BDztiY9b37q4lGePGhGuYhhUOgNl3LvhdyHagB9HOfOflsashIKgbKp1EiNFbZBk1-Iw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="2268" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgDB6qPNN-1PD3-9ODEOhtpEbhCXThJ6T6wkHexcp4C4TKTwmnZ2ERv6-W1SV89vhRYwmMaVKD8Hj0BNazJwbOcI8nG9wJnJjSHhYmH-6ceJ7MgwGQnb_PsP8BDztiY9b37q4lGePGhGuYhhUOgNl3LvhdyHagB9HOfOflsashIKgbKp1EiNFbZBk1-Iw=w360-h640" width="360" /></a></div><p style="text-align: left;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Habis rehat CP1, pendakian disambung tapi bagi laluan jalan dulu untuk </span><i style="font-family: georgia;">geng shooter</i><span style="font-family: georgia;">, Atoq Jan Saiful Senpai Juju Adeng. Dapat pula beban ekstra dari Afiq masa dekat CP1, khemah untuk </span><i style="font-family: georgia;">gegurls</i><span style="font-family: georgia;">. Jadi aku saing-saing Shimi dekat tengah-tengah saja. Sambil mencungap sambil </span><i style="font-family: georgia;">catch up</i><span style="font-family: georgia;"> perihal masing-masing. Penat tak penat, gosip didahulukan, pencarutan diutamakan. Kami sampai CP2 yang berada di satu kawasan sedikit lapang dan landai, nampak geng </span><i style="font-family: georgia;">shooter</i><span style="font-family: georgia;"> tengah duduk rehat. Teguk air sikit, sembang-sembang sikit, tengok langit nampak gelap. Aghisau nak hujan ke? Jadi, Shimi ajak aku gerak dulu. Aku </span><i style="font-family: georgia;">onz</i><span style="font-family: georgia;"> sebab aku spesies lagi lama kat trek lagi penat. Minta izin Pok Cu untuk gerak dulu, dapat saja okey dari dia kami berdua terus bangkit nak gerak ke Kem Baha. Atoq nampak tercabar tanya eh kau nak pergi mana. Hahaha. Jadi bergeraklah semua tinggal Pok Cu, dia tunggu geng</span><i style="font-family: georgia;"> sweeper.</i></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></i></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i style="font-family: georgia;"></i></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i style="font-family: georgia;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEh4mg6KEBiY9guEK03zPQHFno1bsECkPXHWCVWLS-sgD-05EFSofh2GY2znwbVnEbfggCVrq1J35Jjk2w0-wH6PCnuOSghdsa2WMiAgRlvIQp035_bnvwVcYC2tFeFnOrWRElMBP55K4BGZ-FcsensWzRCSNEUUsa8oBD-U0iZxz-_OWW3rhl2CuHRvPw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="1280" height="480" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEh4mg6KEBiY9guEK03zPQHFno1bsECkPXHWCVWLS-sgD-05EFSofh2GY2znwbVnEbfggCVrq1J35Jjk2w0-wH6PCnuOSghdsa2WMiAgRlvIQp035_bnvwVcYC2tFeFnOrWRElMBP55K4BGZ-FcsensWzRCSNEUUsa8oBD-U0iZxz-_OWW3rhl2CuHRvPw" width="640" /></a></i></span></div><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i style="font-family: georgia;"><br /><br /></i></span><p></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i style="font-family: georgia;"><br /></i></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Trek yang tadi berakar ada tempat nak menapak bertukar jadi laluan berbatu licin dan kemudian tanah liat berlecah. Langit yang tadi dilitup kanopi pokok-pokok besar bertukar jadi buluh-buluh melintang di atas kepala. Tidak jarang, tetapi tidak cukup tebal untuk memberi teduh bila sampai hujan tak sepuluh minit kemudian. Masa letak beg ke tanah untuk pasang </span><i style="font-family: georgia;">raincover</i><span style="font-family: georgia;">, tiba-tiba perasan, eh mana khemah </span><i style="font-family: georgia;">gegurls</i><span style="font-family: georgia;">?</span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Sah, tertinggal dekat CP2 masa sibuk nak gerak awal tadi. Kalau ada yang jumpa okeylah, kalau tak naya mat, mana Didi dan Nisa nak tidur? Cubalah telefon geng <i>sweeper</i> dengan <i>line</i> satu <i>bar</i> tapi tak berangkat. Masa ni aku sorang-sorang dekat trek basah kuyup. Ada dua <i>options</i>, penat menapak turun atau penat kena perli kalau khemah tak cukup. Atas dasar tanggungjawab dan integriti, aku lepaskan beg di tanah dan turunlah balik cewah. Mujur separuh jalan jumpa geng sweeper, mujur kuasa dua khemah ada di tangan Afiq. </span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Selesai beban bertukar tangan, aku dan Syamel tinggalkan geng sweeper dan terus ke Kem Baha. <a href="https://bedaduz2.blogspot.com/2022/10/dabong-stong-kem-baha-part-1.html" target="_blank">Ada cerita menarik pasal geng <i>sweeper</i> dan tembikai laici lepas aku <i>shoot</i> ke Kem Baha, tapi itu biar Syed cerita dekat blog dia.</a></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Sampai Kem Baha, hujan pun dah berhenti, lupa dah nak minum nak makan, campak beg terus pergi dekat <i>viewpoint</i>. Guys, cantik guys <i>view</i> dia. Cakap tak guna, biar gambar berbicara.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiGJP76laaVcUyPmPO1lmtxKpfjMiC0K1UCpZb7rl-Usx7S5hVd2qFzGng6rnbAAYQobvlfTv48auoNYPFVTC82p_3xRcT2I9oKDzbbKaX31YhjZl-Ucw2wGa4HTwc3fChp0seLoc4UHphIlWN3BjWftIvlIya4gyF90ZHfNeT1Qa3IFVktTkcEclAO8w" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="766" data-original-width="958" height="480" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiGJP76laaVcUyPmPO1lmtxKpfjMiC0K1UCpZb7rl-Usx7S5hVd2qFzGng6rnbAAYQobvlfTv48auoNYPFVTC82p_3xRcT2I9oKDzbbKaX31YhjZl-Ucw2wGa4HTwc3fChp0seLoc4UHphIlWN3BjWftIvlIya4gyF90ZHfNeT1Qa3IFVktTkcEclAO8w" width="600" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Tapi kata orang bahagia tak kekal lama. Kusangkakan panas sampai ke petang.</span></p><p><span><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Kem Baha dilanda hujan semula. Kali ini lebat. </span></span></p><p><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: georgia;">Kalau hujan dekat trek tadi </span><i style="font-family: georgia;">appetizer</i><span style="font-family: georgia;">, ini</span><span style="font-family: georgia;"> </span><i style="font-family: georgia;">main</i><span style="font-family: georgia;"> </span><i style="font-family: georgia;">course</i><span style="font-family: georgia;">.</span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Kelam kabutlah semua pindah beg ke pondok <i>guide</i></span><span style="font-size: x-small;">. Hujannya pula macam tak ada tanda akan berhenti jadi berbasahanlah semua nak memasang <i>fly</i> dan <i>ground</i>. Pasang cabut pasang cabut <i>fly</i> sebab tapak khemah dekat laluan air. Sejuk gila masing-masing menggeletar. Kem Baha ni 700 meter aras laut. Tak hujan pun anginnya sudah cukup untuk buat bibir <strike>Saiful</strike> membiru. Dalam kelam kabut tu, perhatilah juga cara pasang <i>fly</i> dan ikatan.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><span><i><br /></i></span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><span><i>Confession time</i>: Empat tahun </span><i>hiking</i><span> tak pernah tahu macam mana nak sediakan khemah, pasang </span><i>butane</i><span> dekat </span><i>stove</i><span> pun terkial-kial, sebab gogo sangat dependable.</span><i> Thank you</i><span> Afiq. Mohon turunkan ilmu sementara masih muda.</span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Habis pasang khemah, hujan pun reda, masing-masing mencari haba. Air mula dijerang nak bancuh teh dan kopi. Ada yang berkerumun keliling <i>stove</i>. Ada yang berpeluk tubuh saja. Si Fauzan bijak berpaut mencuri haba dari mak ayamnya Syed <i>lmao</i>. Jujurnya tak boleh nak <i>recall</i> banyak sebab otak beku. Mujur ada yang rakam dari jauh </span><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: xx-small;">(jeling Didi dan Nisa)</span><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiPZKwn4eEHKucVRoc7bo678qsoa0VgNTJf48uaOqKwH5SI48gLzrKMkd8qjrOUKE0TNCYr7hAQPU1LaP5s0nLHwDUSY8w73hrdaoSqSn52-lu01Skr4vB_AlwSqnaEe4Id5Gik9wZOzYnxnb-5eJKdBwC69rsxIwJtzfc-Dc-YGufdFz8sSzB7BgEXOQ" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="3412" data-original-width="1920" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiPZKwn4eEHKucVRoc7bo678qsoa0VgNTJf48uaOqKwH5SI48gLzrKMkd8qjrOUKE0TNCYr7hAQPU1LaP5s0nLHwDUSY8w73hrdaoSqSn52-lu01Skr4vB_AlwSqnaEe4Id5Gik9wZOzYnxnb-5eJKdBwC69rsxIwJtzfc-Dc-YGufdFz8sSzB7BgEXOQ=w360-h640" width="360" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhJP-ShTIPpvnZJofFa92jY0dY0JvkkWnU7wvJrhIPpHbmG9s2168P3il3N9BChKvkr-nfgFiEkHU41nAinCwYsxml_eTXlwtlRpmOJrldWQlKuWQ3MOn06dLi7zENS4Ehz6xxyBqn107N583thQ9Hd5_BI8PtYmJqniFeefnnoUhHo22fOLpEczMdixg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2956" data-original-width="1663" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhJP-ShTIPpvnZJofFa92jY0dY0JvkkWnU7wvJrhIPpHbmG9s2168P3il3N9BChKvkr-nfgFiEkHU41nAinCwYsxml_eTXlwtlRpmOJrldWQlKuWQ3MOn06dLi7zENS4Ehz6xxyBqn107N583thQ9Hd5_BI8PtYmJqniFeefnnoUhHo22fOLpEczMdixg=w360-h640" width="360" /></a> </div><p></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Siang berbaki satu dua jam untuk kami menyiapkan apa yang patut sebelum <i>headlamp</i> dan <i>lantern</i> perlu dinyalakan. Khemah <i>gegurls</i> dipasang. Dapur berasap. Yang lelaki ada yang naik ke kolam air terjun. Airnya sedikit keruh tapi terlalu sejuk untuk kami berendam lama. Anehnya, kolam ini terasa asing walaupun enam tahun lepas aku dan Shimi pernah bermain-main di gigi airnya (<i>we were chickens lol</i>). Habis berendam bersabun, selesai tukar seluar kecik dan besar, kembalilah ke khemah.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Laluan air yang tadinya penuh air mulai kering. Tiada lagi air langit jatuh, yang tinggal hanyalah titis-titis dari hujung daun-daun buluh yang melambai-lambai bagai telapak tangan gergasi. Bunyi-bunyi hutan yang tenggelam dalam deruman hujan kembali mengisi indera telinga, hingar bagi sesiapa yang berhenti dan mendengar. Dari lereng berbatu yang menjadi menara tinjau bumi Dabong, kelihatan benih-benih kabus putih yang bercambah dari gugusan pokok, batu, dan tanah di bawah sana, bagai gumpal kekabu yang disayat perlahan. </span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Malam pertama tiada perkara besar yang kami lakukan kecuali makan malam, bersembang, bermain <i>games</i> dan teka-teki. Afiq dan Senpai seperti <i>trip</i> sebelum ini menjadi tukang masak, Shimi tidak seperti <i>trip</i> sebelum ini tidak lagi menjadi pembantu dapur </span><span style="font-size: xx-small;">tiber nak point out walaupun aku tak tolong juga lol</span><span style="font-size: x-small;">. Menunya nasi dengan daging lada hitam, tapi aku ingat pun sebab aku periksa balik senarai menu dalam <i>Whatsapp group,</i> sebab <i>dinner</i> ni memang aku makan untuk hidup je <i>lol</i>.</span></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Habis makan malam, kami <i>banish</i> Didi dan Nisa ke khemah <i>gegurls</i> untuk <i>the bois</i> main Mafia/Werewolf.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i>Warning: the next part is a Juju appreciation paragraph.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></i></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i><span class="Apple-converted-space"><br /></span></i></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i><span class="Apple-converted-space"></span></i></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><i><span class="Apple-converted-space"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEi94npwHZMTUeGDFe9RJsN-ghIAJR1SbP7smmnTyuYDUqHkjJabCNCH5hvLEJ3cchlluGqtuRTNRKpC0FXf05ostOffK2SFXsrP9YkjpmOkviMeT3RVlIM2zLki4cNG1UiOLZXCgkWusKxCy7W0vhAOB9LYnb9qraSoEM-HZh62ITP1oWyYA3Xvq3Gagw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="720" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEi94npwHZMTUeGDFe9RJsN-ghIAJR1SbP7smmnTyuYDUqHkjJabCNCH5hvLEJ3cchlluGqtuRTNRKpC0FXf05ostOffK2SFXsrP9YkjpmOkviMeT3RVlIM2zLki4cNG1UiOLZXCgkWusKxCy7W0vhAOB9LYnb9qraSoEM-HZh62ITP1oWyYA3Xvq3Gagw=w360-h640" width="360" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgLtCzHanUPhyuLJ_RDvaLMQfBcoJTxVCtHJdHNArZJwGBSIe14KZj0tDwcXHwfUAakJlHhDvJRya0ZWuF2Oav6oMow0jl5ZZmz17ZlyPHcTeNQtRIG3eIX4uI344YL_ce_cbJRBVAxoDT1Ai49QMLeLno4DzAEAqjsRepW73p4e6uyYCiU-rNaQPqI-A" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="720" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgLtCzHanUPhyuLJ_RDvaLMQfBcoJTxVCtHJdHNArZJwGBSIe14KZj0tDwcXHwfUAakJlHhDvJRya0ZWuF2Oav6oMow0jl5ZZmz17ZlyPHcTeNQtRIG3eIX4uI344YL_ce_cbJRBVAxoDT1Ai49QMLeLno4DzAEAqjsRepW73p4e6uyYCiU-rNaQPqI-A=w360-h640" width="360" /></a><br /><br /></span></i></span></div><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Juju jadi moderator untuk <i>game</i> Werewolf, <i>and oh boy what a moderator he was</i>! Tak pernah lagi aku main Werewolf yang orang kampungnya kucing, <i>werewolf</i>nya anjing menyamar kucing, dan doktornya kucing magik dengan kuasa penyembuhan diaktifkan dengan menjilat jubur kucing! Juju, sama ada kau <i>high</i> atau kau genius. Mengarut gila sampai nak berlakon *bukan* <i>werewolf</i> pun payah. <i>Mental note</i>: Bunuh dulu Syed, Afiq, dan Fauzan sebab tiga orang ni sangat perseptif. <i>And then</i> Sapek, sebab dia, <i>well</i>, Sapek. Cakap pasal mengarut, Shimi dan Juju ada beberapa ujian penglihatan dan pendengaran yang mengarut dan mudah kata <i>annoying</i> lol. Syamel tak boleh nak <i>brain</i> ujian-ujian tu, Syed pulak rasa mengarut sebab kena perhatikan benda yang arbitrari. Mungkin itu poin dia? Kalau tanya aku, aku suka, sebab lagi senang dari berlakon *bukan* <i>werewolf</i>. Haha.</span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjIgY1z5iYSck6Aiaa1qffw13hR0N8aYXJAA8Nzfc9OuIibUi8CNr5RPImL_aPcAtzFNi1EIMhKAY-O9_F0pLYLM2BkK7XHhHKjEZ1CcBGWtalprr7SrGomWH8wOYIC3ZEeKwaZ5ze1Me9UJlFewNQvUJafH9qJTfOwfFlmqK-CeHv2MnxoB_zrg9Kmvw" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="1280" height="360" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjIgY1z5iYSck6Aiaa1qffw13hR0N8aYXJAA8Nzfc9OuIibUi8CNr5RPImL_aPcAtzFNi1EIMhKAY-O9_F0pLYLM2BkK7XHhHKjEZ1CcBGWtalprr7SrGomWH8wOYIC3ZEeKwaZ5ze1Me9UJlFewNQvUJafH9qJTfOwfFlmqK-CeHv2MnxoB_zrg9Kmvw=w640-h360" width="640" /></a></span></div><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span><p></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Penat ketawa dan berfikir, masing-masing bersiap untuk tidur. Kecuali Saiful yang tidur dalam <i>hammock</i>, dan Atoq-Fauzan yang tidur dalam khemah sendiri, semua berhimpit dalam khemah besar. Penghadang angin yang dipasang petang tadi oleh Adeng, Afiq, dan aku berfungsi baik walaupun cincai sahaja kerjanya. Sesiapa yang baca bahagian ni dari masa hadapan, sila pastikan pintu khemah tidak menghadap puncak ya, sebab angin malam bertiup betul-betul turun dari puncak.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Sedang kami hingar dengan ketawa dan jerit, di bawah sana, angin malam sedang dalam diam-diam memintal kabus yang meresap dari tanah ke langit. Malam ini, sewaktu kami tidur dan bermimpi, Tuhan akan mengait mereka menjadi selimut dan siang esok, Dia akan menghamparkannya di atas bumi Dabong supaya jiwa-jiwa kami ini menjadi hangat saat menyaksikan sedikit bayangan syurga.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;">Sesungguhnya tiadalah sia-sia ketentuanNya, waima hujan yang sejuknya menggigit tulang.</span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p2" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><a href="https://ashoulderon.blogspot.com/2022/09/train-to-dabong-ii.html">Bersambung di bahagian dua>></a></span></p><p class="p1" style="font-stretch: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: georgia; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></p>Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-25168593121030808922021-09-26T14:45:00.004+08:002021-09-26T15:10:02.340+08:00Summertime Sadness<p><span style="font-family: arial;"><br /></span></p>
<p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: arial;"><span> </span>Seems like it was just yesterday we were walking down the hill towards the lake, wrapping up our day looking at the sunset. Everyone else scattered around the edge of the lake, under the trees, in pairs of twos and threes. Some were half-shouting to the vendor to give them their junk food and soft drinks that they cannot get at any other time. Apart from that, there’s not too much to see there, the whole area can get quite dark in the late evening, it’s like a tunnel being under the canopy of trees. Some would find it beautiful looking at the water shimmering the yellow and red of the sky, framed by the dark silhouette of the foliage. </span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: arial;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: arial;"><span> </span>Against the endless routine of marching practices and nation building classes, this setting seemed laid-back enough for us to breathe and rest our minds. Well, <i>my </i>mind because I cannot stop thinking why you want me to be around you. You see, I was unsure how much my worth was back then to deserve being with anyone, let alone you. I’m sure you don’t think like that because you’re you, ever so kind and just a joy to be around with. Everybody likes you, and you everyone. I guess it must be difficult for you on days when I just don’t like myself enough to let anyone likes me back. It seems a little silly to say this now, but I know now I was such a child and I’m sorry.</span></p>
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<p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: arial;"><span> </span>Sometimes, when I’m alone on a bus or a train, I will remember the many bus trips we took during the camp. It was never the destination, in fact I cannot even form a complete memory of any of the places we went to even when I try. But it was the moments along the way that I missed. Now and again they pop into my mind without warning, not that I’m complaining. Eyes closed, head pressed against the window glass, the hum of the traffic or the sound of the steel wheel against the track reverberates the subconscious longing in my slumber, and the forgotten moments float atop the sand of time, waiting to be discovered by the eyes of my mind, and when they did, I can see us again, young and free. There we were, on the bus talking and laughing about nothing while we rolled along the road to nowhere. There’s just something so inexplicably endearing and innocent and sweet about sitting next to each other, and just…talk. Seems like there’s just us in our own little world despite being surrounded with another thirty plus care-free teenagers. I’m sure they were in their own world, too. Oh, to be young again!</span></p>
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<p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: arial;"><span> </span>Do you remember you thought I was Chinese at first? Confession time, I thought you’re arrogant haha. I guess that’s why it was so easy for us to talk once we know each other, because we’re just nothing like what we thought we were, in fact we’re so similar we just clicked. We were both from a boarding school. And we both love science. I mean, what teenager talks about science outside of school? It was fun seeing your eyes lit up when you talk about Einstein. I was always fascinated by light and space and time, but we were just not there yet to learn about theory of relativity, E=mc2, the works. But there you were, showing me your prized book; <i>Teori Relativiti</i> or something. Yes, in BM. Pretty sure you stole it from a library but what's the sin in that when there’s no one going to notice it anyway? I wonder how many times you read that book because the binding of the book was almost busted.</span></p>
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<p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: arial;"><span> </span>But it was not all nerdy talk, there’s dirty talk too, but not <i>that</i> kind of dirty. Sometimes you talk crap about others, and I always laughed because it was so out of your character. That and the pouty mouth you make when you complained. I'm glad that you did, although you always regretted telling them (yeah, right). Because it reminded me that you’re not some perfect being, that you’re a teenager too. But one cannot be living their teenage life to the fullest without talking about music, and talk about music we did. It was a Saturday maybe because we were on our free time. Me, Eri, Sang, and you would meet up at the hut we always meet to pass our time. Somehow that day one budak surau got away with playing nasyid on the surau’s PA system. It didn’t surprised me when we sang along to the tune because you guys were the very definition of budak baik (minus Sang haha), even more baik than budak surau. Naturally, we end up talking about the songs we like. Me the Top 40s, Eri the rock kapak, and Sang the Malay hits (all the Sitis and Nors). But you surprised us yet again when you said you listen to metal songs from bands so obscure, you laughed when I said I listened to System of a Down. I mean, what are you?</span></p>
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<p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: arial;"><span> </span>Can you remember it ever rain when we were there? I don’t, and to me it was as close as I can get to a summer camp. Now, on days too hot to do anything but to laze away and stares at the sky, the adult me will feel some kind of sadness, my mind will be infected by fragments of emotion from decades long gone. A time when we were still too young to learn to not put our hearts on our sleeves. A time when we would jump head first into the pool of our feelings, bruised and blue be damned. In the hut across the field, or under the trees that dotted the hill towards the lake, or on the bus heading God knows where, it seemed like we can talk endlessly. Time stretched long like spaghetti for as long as we want to talk. Time seemed to grace us with all of her and it seemed we have her forever, how naive. Because like every other good things, they all come to an end. I had to leave for my studies.</span></p>
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<p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: arial;"><span> </span>When I heard the news, time ceased to exist, like we’re sucked into a blackhole we cannot climb out of. It was so abrupt I had no chance to feel anything. We didn’t exchanged our numbers because we have no phones back then, I think. We probably promised each other to keep in touch but Lord knows how. My fickle memory, always betray me. All I can recall was the very last moments when we bid our farewell. We hugged each other like we know we will never see each other again.Tears were shed. Eri was sobbing like a child it broke my heart. Looking through the rear window of the car, I saw you guys waving me goodbye, smaller and smaller until you vanished behind the curve. </span></p>
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<p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: arial;">I wonder where you are now. I wonder if you missed me. Because I do.</span></p>
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line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Sebagai sebatang tubuh tak berwajah</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 12px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Lalu aku bongkar semula</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Album-album dalam kotak-kotak</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Yang kami simpan jauh ke dalam</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Terperosok dalam penjuru tergelap</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Aku belek helai-helai kertas licin</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Yang merakam garis bibirmu yang nipis</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Senyum yang bermain dia alis matamu yang sepet</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Supaya lengkaplah mimpi-mimpiku</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Sebegitu lamanya cuba aku lupakan</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Aku menjangkakan kau akan terlihat asing</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; 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line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Ternyata yang terpendam</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Adalah kerinduanmu kepada kami</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Yang engkau rakam</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Sebelum engkau pergi</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Seratus dua puluh sembilan purnama</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Dan beberapa gerhana dan selamanya</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; 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line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; font-size: medium;">_________________________________________________________</span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><i><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Baca: </span><a href="https://bedaduz2.blogspot.com/2021/06/hilang-1.html">Hilang (1)</a> dari bedaduz</i></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><i>Baca: <a href="https://merentashorizon.blogspot.com/2021/06/hilang-1.html">Hilang (1)</a> dari kasaraa</i></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p><p style="font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: trebuchet; font-size: medium;"><br /></span></p>Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-74357691789240072072020-07-03T23:33:00.001+08:002020-07-03T23:33:27.342+08:00Hanya Kamu<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Melihat panas dan hujan<o:p></o:p></div>
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Sungai dan hutan,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Matahari dan awan<o:p></o:p></div>
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Memandang pantai dan lautan<o:p></o:p></div>
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Mengira bintang merenung bulan<o:p></o:p></div>
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Yang kunampak hanya kamu<o:p></o:p></div>
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Diselubung gelap malam<o:p></o:p></div>
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Dikatup telinga mata dipejam<o:p></o:p></div>
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Kumahu lupa yang silam<o:p></o:p></div>
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Kuingin hitam malam</div>
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Yang kunampak hanya kamu<o:p></o:p></div>
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Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-67510036179202248792019-11-07T22:16:00.003+08:002022-09-26T13:09:03.996+08:00Orbiter Habiter<br />
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I’m an orbiter,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Perpetually falling for you,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Into you,<o:p></o:p></div>
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But not quite.<o:p></o:p></div>
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An imaginary string between us two,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Tethering me to you.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Close enough to keep me hovering for more,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Far enough to keep me wondering what for.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I’m just one of your orbiters,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Among countless other,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Waiting for my shot,<o:p></o:p></div>
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To shine a light into your sight,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Pulling a tide in your cruel heart.<o:p></o:p></div>
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This habit of rotating and gyrating,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Used to be nauseating but exhilarating,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Now it’s numbingly painless as it is pointless.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Used and useless,<o:p></o:p></div>
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That’s all my worth I can say,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Like an old dried out rag if you may.<o:p></o:p></div>
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It’s time to cut the string.<o:p></o:p></div>
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It’s time to end the wondering,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Oh yes yes, you were a wonder,<o:p></o:p></div>
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You’re great but I guess that’s it?<o:p></o:p></div>
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Hope I’ll see you again, never.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
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I was your orbiter,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Perpetually falling for you,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Into you,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
But not quite, no more,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Because it’s not alright, not anymore.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Najahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11001468048437806262noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-22588776717459159822019-02-17T18:19:00.000+08:002019-02-17T18:19:32.557+08:00A Fool, A Coward<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Since you’re here<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Sky’s a lot bluer<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Sun’s shining a
little brighter<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Even water tastes
a little sweeter<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I caught myself
smiling<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Laughing
at the possibilities<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">At
the thought of spending<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Our
life together, in eternity<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">But shy’s a bad
colour<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I
need to man up, yes<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">These
words, you need to hear<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Or it
won’t matter<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I
wish I knew how to tell<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">All this without
sounding like a fool<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I’d bend over
backwards<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I’d take the
lowest limbo stick<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">But I'm such a
coward<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I’m hopeless like
a bimbo driving stick<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I have nothing to
offer<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">But my forever<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">And forever's a
long time.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I wish I can hear
your thoughts<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">That this is not
for naught<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">And I wish you
can hear mine,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">That I want you
to be mine<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0cm;">
<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">God, I wish
you’re mine.</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-6064572385749187032017-08-29T01:20:00.001+08:002017-08-29T01:20:19.728+08:00Satu Pagi<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Detap hujan menjadi derap<br />
Kadang dentam kadang denting<br />
Menghentam hunjam atap zink<br />
<br />
Dan ini ialah bicara hati dini satu pagi<br />
Aku masih mencuba menulis<br />
Sejujurnya menulis<br />
Tanpa mencuba menjadi puitis<br />
<br />
Tapi entahlah<br />
Semuanya kecamuk<br />
Berantakan bagai dilanda amuk<br />
Tak tergores ayat<br />
Tak tercalit dakwat<br />
Rasa ini seakan sekat<br />
Ditelan perit diluah sakit<br />
<br />
Terlalu banyak rasa untuk disusun menjadi kata<br />
Terlalu kompleks runtun jiwa tak terjemah menjadi bahasa<br />
Terlalu rumit untuk dikisahkan mana subjek mana predikat<br />
Terlalu sedikit peribahasa terlalu banyak peristiwa<br />
<br />
Biarlah carca marba prosa ini<br />
Menjadi seperti simile<br />
Puisi ini metafora hati<br />
Simpulan bahasa bagi simpulan kata yang mati<br />
<br />
Dan ini masih bicara hati dini satu pagi<br />
Walau hujan sudah pun berhenti</div>
Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-86922304461524443092017-07-04T19:38:00.001+08:002022-09-26T13:13:01.566+08:00Samsara Laut<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Deraman enjin diesel mencakar papan yang lembab. Disentap
sauh yang melangut di ujung kapal, dicampak di tengah laut, di bawah lindungan
astral. <o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Enjin dimatikan, deram jadi batuk, batuk jadi dehem.
Kemudian senyap. Telinga semacam dipekap tiada-bunyi, sengap terlampau sunyi.</div>
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<o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
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Berlabuhlah aku di lebuh nautika, melempar perambut di
lantai samudera, diam makhluk laut mencari suaka. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Dan aku? Aku datang mencari suara.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dibalut lembut henjutan laut, diserkup langit kosong bebintang
tak dijemput. Sedangkan bulan juga digerhana awan, pudarlah wajahmu dari
ingatan, saat buruj tidak terjahit terlihatkan. Sebegitu sekali hebatnya
kesilapan diri, menjenguk pun tidak layak.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Kemaafan apa aku perlu lafazkan, sesalan apa yang harusku
hafazkan, barulah engkau mahu menerobos tembus dari balik awan menyinar serba
mulus, lagi terang dari sang badrus. Kalau harus aku menyelam ke lurah hatimu,
sedalam mana baru kanku temu pengampunan? Di balik kubu yang kaubina dari rencam
rasa yang engkau pendamkan, sekuat mana harus kuumpil baru kau sudi membuka
pintu hati yang selama ini terkatup mati?<o:p></o:p></div>
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<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Tapi di sini, di dalam laut hati aku sendiri yang terlalu
lama gersang cahaya ditelangkup gelap, secebis luminis pun kian malap.
Hitam laut hati ini menyusup ke langit, hingga tak bisa dibanding pejamkah
celik. Jeritan hati yang bisu biar terdengar dek lautan Terengganu, keluh-kesah
yang mendesah sayup. Wahai laut, aku berahikan prakata tentang perasaan, prarasa tentang cinta, bahkan sembang kosong dan kekek tawa yang aku sangka tak berpenghujung. Tak dapat diramal akal bahawa bahagia ini cuma sejengkal, walhal selebihnya pengharapan mengkal, permulaan cerita derita. <o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Bicara laut <i>biarlah
derita itu melindap. </i>Angin samudera pula bertiup ke cuping telinga, bisiknya menyelinap ke jiwa seakan berkata, <i>sudahlah,
lepaskan harap.</i> <o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<i><br /></i></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Dan tiadalah hati ini larat lagi! Wahai insan yang aku kejar
pengampunan, tidaklah sehari berlalu tanpa aku melibas belakang badan dengan
cambuk sesal, belikat aku sudah berselirat birat, parutnya cabuk, cacahan
sebal. <o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Jadi, kepekatan gelap ini biarlah menjadi soles bagi hati
yang terlalu lama dicalar guris. Biar malam ini jadi penutup pada samsara, yang
menggulung aku sekeras ombak yang gelora. Derailah garang sang badai menjadi
air, terungkai saat bertemu pantai, sisanya bahkan tumimbal lahir, jadi buih di
himpunan pasir, menggumam deruman si guntur, membumi arka sang petir.<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Maha asa kaubukalah mata ketigaku yang dulunya gelap aspal. Supaya dapatku menafsir suara takdir yang serasa hayatnya ekuivokal. Dengan sifir kehidupan dan logaritma degup jiwa yang kauajarkan, akan aku pilih satu
terjemahan, dari dua yang bercanggahan.<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
Di sunyi tanpa enjin berderaman, melangut muka ke langit tak tercerapkan, bawah lindungan astral yang kian terbit kian dian. Aku
rupanya bukan sendirian, bahkan termerdekakan.<o:p></o:p></div>
<br />
<div class="MsoNormal">
<br /></div>
</div>
Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-22551213006399426392017-02-19T19:26:00.001+08:002017-02-20T22:47:31.319+08:00The Crossroad<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I feel like I finally reached the crossroad that I dread. With each step, my heart sank a little more. The heaviness is not in my feet, but rather, in my chest. All the stops that I took did nothing more than just delaying the inevitable. All the detours always, always lead me back to this.<br />
<br />
The other day someone asked me how old I am? And I hesitated. No, not because I'm afraid to reveal how old I am, because it's pretty evident that I look my age, there's just no point lying. Right hand to God, at that time I forgot my age! So my head did a little calculation and I just realized that I'm freakin 27 going 28.<br />
<br />
Not caring about your age might seem romantic, but that is only true if you're living your life knowing what you want. And I'm not.<br />
<br />
What is my accomplishment so far? I don't have my own car (and it's killing me). I'm not in anyway close to owning a house, heck I don't even rent one because I'm living in a subsidized company house which is basically a slum with all the drama I had to endure on a daily basis. I don't invest my money. I'm still at my first job (that's as far as I can comment about that, but you get the gist).<br />
<br />
In essence I avoid all the prerequisite steps a boy has to take to become a man. I run. I hide. I live the day without really thinking what's going to happen tomorrow. And I wish I do my best every day, that would be great, go ahead turn my selfies into motivational posters. But I dread each of them. I'm stuck.<br />
<br />
I don't need to follow other people's typical lives, yeah sure, but it's become apparent to me that I'm nothing more than typical. This is not self pity, but a realization. I'm not going to change the world. I don't have any talent that I can capitalize. I'm socially awkward and sometimes downright hostile. I'm failing everything. If it makes any sense, right now while I'm typing this down I'm reminded of my 10-years-old self. You have so much potential. You were ambitious. Idealistic. I failed you and I'm sorry.<br />
<br />
I need to turn this around, damn it.<br />
<br />
But I don't know if I can. I <i>just </i>don't know if I can.</div>
Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-73228659256151114932016-10-27T17:17:00.000+08:002016-10-27T17:17:22.580+08:00Bulu Hidung<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Engkau bagai bulu hidung,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Diam tersorok, meliuk-lentok,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Tabah engkau di dalam gelap,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Perlahan kau tumbuh, tetapi aduh, begitu pasti begitu ampuh.<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Kadang hangat engkau dihembus udara utara,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Kemudian dingin disapa sepoi selatan,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Ada ketika dilanda banjir masin,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Ada kala dibenam lumpur, menggelupur<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Terpisat-pisat engkau cuba bangkit<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Dari kerak hijau melekit.<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Engkau bagai bulu hidung,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Perlahan-lahan engkau melolos diri dari gua yang memenjara,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Apalah kiranya dipotong direntap dicarik ditarik,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Bahkan setimpal semuanya demi seketika merdeka.<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Tidak.<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Tidak akan sesekali engkau berhenti menjadi subur,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Yakinlah dari cambahanmu engkau melunjur,</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Biar di tangan manusia engkau berkubur,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Rentaplah!<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Biar tercabut dari umbi yang mengakar,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Tetap bangkit walau bumi henti berputar,<o:p></o:p></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Dari pintu dua gua terperongo,<o:p></o:p></div>
<br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Ayuh jengahlah engkau keluar!<o:p></o:p></div>
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Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-8393659676651361022016-10-21T07:04:00.001+08:002016-10-21T07:07:25.211+08:00Sang Pengejar<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Aku mengejar engkau dikejar,<br />
<div>
Begitulah.</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Perlu ada cerita sebelum mahu bicara,</div>
<div>
Harus ada agenda sebelum berjumpa,</div>
<div>
Kena ditetapkan mana dan bila,</div>
<div>
Dikira-kira ongkosnya.</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Tanpa kita sedar, tali merah yang disimpul pada pasak hati kita,</div>
<div>
Kini boleh dinilai dengan wang ringgit.</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Dan tanpa aku sedar, aku menyumpah pada Tuhan yang mencampak kita,</div>
<div>
Terpisah masa dan ruang yang semakin menjurang tapi semakin menghimpit.</div>
<div>
<br /></div>
<div>
Bukan salah sesiapa.</div>
<div>
Bahkan lumrah, qada dan qadar.</div>
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Aku mengejar engkau dikejar.</div>
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Begitulah.</div>
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Dapatkah aku risik keindahan dalam lubang neraka?<br />
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Dinding-dinding konkrit retak bermandikan panas. Dicela asap dan debu, tak cukup sifat, asal boleh guna. Herot-berot biarlah, lantak pi kalau tak roboh tak apa.<br />
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Anak mata bagai dicucuh dengan bara rokok, pekan ini barua kepada petualang totok, sang pelacur kota yang menjaja merdeka demi kertas-kertas ronyok, yang dikaut dari kocek yang dilenjun kangkang berpeluh. Pekan bodoh ini sempit dan buruk, hingar dan sibuk hingga tiada hijau yang ingin tumbuh. Warna yang tinggal hanya kelabu simen dan hitam jelaga, yang merah hanya jalan tak berturap, haiwannya tinggal anjing kucing berkurap.<br />
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Tulang ikan dan isi perut babi di campak ke dalam longkang, digogong anjing dikunyah kucing, serpihnya diunggis cencorot dan tikus. Unggas yang ada -- kuak-kuak si hitam gagak, desing mengacau lalat dan langau.<br />
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Tong yang tadi paginya diunggah dengan sampah, bakal dipunggah aci rumah sebelah. Entah berbaloi mana sesen dua dari tin, botol, dan kotak yang dijejak dihenyak tapak yang semalamnya tahi anjing dipijak.<br />
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Hendak melihat cerah pagi dan warna-warna senja, jadi seksa mata. Berselirat wayar dan kabel bergayutan, pada tiap hujung bertautan pada tiang-tiang berceranggahan. Siangnya panas, malamnya menakutkan. Samseng parya meronda-ronda mencari mangsa di balik-balik selekoh, pada jalan yang sama sunyi malam dicakar ekzos mat rempit, mat pet mencari port nak hisap pot, bawah tiang lampu yang ditampal iklan ubat kuat dan pinjaman berlesen jerung si cina ah long.<br />
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Bagi tahu dekat aku, mana hendak cari indah dalam lubang neraka?</div>
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Adakah itu kemaafanmu? Adakah redup pandangmu, dan nipis senyum di bujur wajahmu itu satu pengampunan?<br />
Andai benar itu ajakanmu untuk kembali damai, kenapa hati ini dicakar gusar?<br />
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Mengapa senda guraumu membuat aku tertunduk malu? Malu pada dosa yang lebih mudah bagi engkau dari aku untuk maafi.<br />
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Ironi bila dikenang luluh kecai hati ini bila aku dihukum dengan tidak-endah. Aku bagai orang dungu, mahu menyauk kering laut kemarahan dengan bakul rotan. Bila aku mahu merangkul engkau jangan pergi, yang aku kaup hanya ruh kenangan yang silam, yang engkau tinggalkan buat menghantui malam-malam aku bermenung. Kejam.<br />
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Dan kini bila sudah reda marah ditangis masa, engkau bersedia salamku disambut, aku pula menjadi takut.<br />
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Tiada kemaafan yang mudah, aku tahu itu. Bundar pandangmu, lengkuk senyummu, canda guraumu semua itu payah bagimu, aku tahu itu. Tapi rasanya belum setimpal lagi, tak layak kiranya untuk aku bersandar di pangkal pohon persahabatan kita. Pohon yang aku cuba bakar, tidakkah jelik untuk aku menumpang di bawah bayangnya bila hijau daun baru nak berputik. Biarkanlah aku berdiri di bawah terik, biarkan aku di siang berkeringat, di malam berembun. Tiba masanya aku akan dekat, mencari besar hatimu di celahan rimbun.<br />
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Aku di sini.<br />
Aku mahu engkau kembali.<br />
Aku mahukan engkau lebih dari mampu detap-detap jari mengetuk papan kekunci mengungkap isi hati.<br />
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Jangan putus harap, aku akan pulang juga.<br />
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Moga masih redup matamu, terukir senyummu, bercandalah kau dan aku.</div>
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Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-23253158290729835332016-09-10T12:37:00.001+08:002016-09-10T15:10:08.276+08:00Kawan<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Adakah engkau
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Rasanya seperti
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engkau tangkas melakar O. Mencuba aku perangkap engkau di penjuru dengan sebuah
pangkah, tapi cepat engkau mengubah tingkah. Bila kotak-kotak hampir habis
terisi di tengah dan di hujung, yang aku dapat lakukan hanyalah<span class="apple-converted-space"> </span><i>play
along. </i>Ingatkah lagi engkau halnya Bukit Kutu dulu?<span class="apple-converted-space" style="font-style: italic;"> </span><span class="apple-converted-space">Kalau hati engkau tetaplah pada kembara yang datang ini, buatlah sehabisnya sebagaimana di kembara yang itu, sampai puncaknya kau jejak, sampai awanan engkau pijak.</span></span></div>
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kiralah kotak mana yang aku pangkah pun, adakah menghalang atau </span><i style="font-family: inherit;">play along</i><span style="font-family: inherit;">, lakaran yang pengakhiran, kata yang terakhir tetaplah dari engkau.
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Adakah engkau
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Kau tahu, perasaan
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dengan Abang. Sebagaimana engkau patut meraikan pertunangan Abang, seperti
itulah juga patut aku bergembira engkau mencabar diri, menghayun kaki, tak
berhenti-henti mendaki. </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">Tapi jika itu yang
patut kita lakukan, mengapa hati kita pedih seperti dihunjam bilah-bilah
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Jujur aku katakan, demi diri engkau yang aku kenal dan kisah, demi gunung-ganang yang aku sumpah, demi sedikit perhatian yang kita sembah, aku merasa takut untuk engkau. Bukanlah kudratmu yang aku pertikai, tapi siapalah di kecelikan akal mahu membayang seorang kawan memikul sepukal lecet, lelah, dan mengah, bahkan berharian bermalaman pula! </div>
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Wahai gunung yang tiga, janganlah engkau kejam menghukum manusia yang menginjak wajahmu, sedangkan engkau itu juga sekadar segumpal batu yang diangkat Tuhan dari dasar tanah dan lautan. Janganlah engkau membalas angkuh mereka dengan angkuh pula, janganlah mereka jatuh dibiar jatuh. Engkau berilah mereka sedikit belas, jangan kaujadi sang penghukum, sang pengulas.</div>
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Wahai kawan, pergi kau bukanlah selamanya, beberapa hari dan malam cuma. Benarkah? Aku tak begitu pasti lagi. Mungkin engkau akan pulang, ya, tapi adakah yang pulang itu engkau? Mengapa kurasa di akhirnya nanti, tidaklah engkau mendapat sesuatu dari puncak pergunungan, tetapi tertinggal pula satu dua cebis dirimu, f<s><span style="font-family: "calibri" , sans-serif; font-size: 13.5pt; line-height: 107%;">at</span></s> zat yang menjadikan engkau seorang... kawan.<br />
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Sekali-sekala rasa sunyi itu akan datang</div>
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Bila habis kerja balik petang</div>
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Yang menyambut hanya lompong ruang</div>
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Jadi rutin turn on PC</div>
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Tengok drama bersiri atau setengah jam komedi</div>
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Paksa diri membahak ketawa</div>
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Malu mengaku kosongnya jiwa</div>
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Habis punchline dan lawak slapstik</div>
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Merenung skrin hitam dicakar kredit</div>
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Kembalilah diam mengira detik</div>
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Membenci diri menyalah nasib.</div>
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Hidup segan mati tak mahu</div>
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Sedang yang lain punya teman</div>
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Kerja impian kereta idaman</div>
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Di aroma Bangladeshi dan kilang industri</div>
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Tak menjamah toksik asap beracun</div>
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Pekan ini sudah pun merubah aku</div>
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Aku sudah tak mendengar muzik macam dulu</div>
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Lirik dan rentak tak bermakna lagi pada lagu</div>
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Aku sudah tak menonton filem seperti dulu lagi</div>
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Lakon dan kualiti bukanlah prioriti</div>
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Atau sesal terpendam jarang terekspresi</div>
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Pada sesiapa rangkap-rangkap ini dibaca</div>
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Tahulah aku bukannya @arlinabanana</div>
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Mungkin sekadar krisis eksistensial</div>
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Mungkin juga aku tak <i>exist</i>, hanya sial</div>
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Oh,</div>
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Apalah yang lain peduli</div>
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Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-85563680847976771012016-07-27T16:52:00.000+08:002016-07-27T16:52:04.724+08:00Gelap<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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kerongkong waktu ini seakan mual dengan asingnya kehadiran aku.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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aku antara dua dinding, yakni perasaan dan Tuhan. Rusuk-rusuk semakin ditekan,
memeluk jantung dan paru, membelahak hembusan sakit dan haru, picingan matalah
nisbahan derita, aduh!<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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yang aku dapat bila mengharap lebih dari rela Tuhan. Inilah dia pengakhiran
bila jiwa perasaan dilayan lebih dari akal fikiran.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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kaukejarkan gejolak hati perasaan, habis rasa yang tinggal hanya gelojakan iman.
Layaknya rasa itu dipendam saja. Kenapa mahu melonjak bila tak cukup langkah
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Bila habis minyak di dasar pelita, bayangan kan hilang di layar cerita. Habis,
habis ditelan kegelapan. Lantiklah dalang sehebat mana, kalau tiada cahaya
laungan suara berkisah itu hanyalah pekikan yang memek, repek sang momok tua
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Najakiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17115523857691360034noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-918477100991143164.post-24194548742211909442016-06-27T15:07:00.000+08:002016-06-27T15:33:32.270+08:00Separation (I)<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 14.666666666666666px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I remember my first real taste of separation was when Mak decided to go back to Perak with my little sister when I was four or five, leaving me in Pahang with my big sister. I still remember chasing her down the hill at the back of our house; Mak and Iwa were on the old motorcycle, Abah sending them away for the bus. I ran with all my might, screaming </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 14.666666666666666px; font-style: italic; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Mak! Mak!</span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 14.666666666666666px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;"> with tears running down my cheek. Choked with my own tears and screams under the shadow of pokok sentul at the end of the hill, I learned that day separation hurts.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 14.666666666666666px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">My sister spent the whole day coaxing and lying. She promised me a day out at the town, for toys and stuff. She did, but Mak wasn’t home in the evening like she told me. I learned then that I hate separation.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 14.666666666666666px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">We got separated again when I was barely twelve, except this time I’ll be the one who left and I will be all alone, apart from my mother with no sister to look after. I don't understand why would people invent boarding schools. Being apart from your own mother in two different states for three-four months at one time was incomprehensible on itself. But really, it was the journey. That three-four hours journey on roads that snake through forests and ravines was something else.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 14.666666666666666px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I sincerely believe that all the hairpin corners and sphincter-constricting-deep cliffs did something to my heart more than it did to my gut. I’m a different person since. The moment Mak silently </span><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 14.666666666666666px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">left me at the hostel, I’m no longer the boy she knew. Mak was just gone when I turned my head.There was no goodbye, for what good will it bring to let a boy cry, when he will have to fend for himself for the next three years there. No one last look, no waving of hands to bid farewell. Nothing is well when you robbed mother’s love from a child, it’s certainly not fair.</span></div>
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