perfectlyimperfect

Lately I thought about marriage a lot. Not that I'm so gatai meghela nak nikah .Just that there's so many people about my age are now married, or planning to. If you asked me about marriage 5 years ago, I would go laughing so loud you don't wanna ask me again. But now, I feel like everyone is pushing me into the other dimension of the unthinkable; yes, marriage. Just a few months back, I'm a pengapit to my sister. And this 30 July, a girl friend of mine is inviting people for nasik minyak . Suddenly, I felt like a toddler still playing Legos, when everyone else busy playing Playstation. All the boys are talking about BoboiBoy, and I'm stucked with Usop Sontorian. Semua orang sibuk dengan fixie ,aku sibuk dengan skuter kuis kaki... I felt so left out!!! And if I lined up my siblings it would be like this: Not married Not married Married Married Married Married Married Married Not married <-----this is me You see how the list literally translates to " I...

Senja itu selalu kuning dan merah, Sekuning jantungku yang kematian detak, Semerah hatiku yang merembes darah Sesunyi dada, habis nafas kencang berombak. Dan aku melihat warna itu menjingga Di balik himpunan mega Serentak itu, kau hadir jelma Sepasti gelap bayang, sejelas terang sinar Ketika itu juga, Saat dan detik itu juga, Jiwa ini dicucuk sebak Terbit air di ujung kelopak, Lalu menari-nari semula memori, Berdansa kembali dalam arteri, Bagai semalam terjadi, Bagai kau ada lagi. Aku cukup tahu ketentuan Tuhan Pastinya nyawa dipancung kematian Dikumpul kembali menghadap ar-Rahman Berharap jumpa di syurga yang aman. Aku cukup tahu hakikat itu Cuma tak tertahan kelatnya rindu Takut reput menunggu kamu Di pangkin senja berlatar sendu. Dan senja itu masih kuning dan merah. Bulan ini adalah bulan kelahiranmu adik aku, Iwa . 1 Julai 2011. Semoga kau terus aman. Aku akan terus menunggu dan merindu. Al-Fatihah.