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Wednesday, December 23

Jahatnya Aku

Have been very jahat lately ...
As if I'm immortal
As if I'm invincible



Dan adapun orang yang kitabnya
Diberi ke tangan kirinya
Maka akan dia berkata

"Alangkah baiknya jika
Kitabku tidak diberikan padaku
Hingga aku tak tahu
Bagaimana perhitunganku
Wahai,kira mati penyudah segala sesuatu
Hartaku
Tiada sedikit berguna bagiku
Kuasaku
Telah hilang dariku"

"Tangkaplah dia!"
"Lalu belenggu tangannya ke lehernya!"
"Lalu campak ke dalam neraka yang menyala-nyala!"
"Lalu belit dia dengan rantai tujuh puluh hasta!"







al-Haqqah:25~32

Friday, December 18

Kawan.Bahagia.Bersama.Selamanya.

Enjoying every minute of my life today
As if there's no tomorrow
Eating out today
Futsal tomorrow
Make jokes of everything
And laughing about anything
I love my friends
I think I wouldn't be me without them
and they wouldn't be them without me- I hope
I don't want to have regrets anymore
Live my life to the fullest
and never get tired of it
urgh,got to tidur!
There's futsal tomorrow!

Monday, December 14

Afraid to Fall

Aku pernah rasa dulu
Rasa bahagia merasa cinta
Rasa paling kuat aku sangka
Aku terdiam bila aku tersilap
Aku senyap bila aku tahu
Rasa bila didusta itu lagi kuat
lagi pedih

Jadi aku sekarang cuba lari
kerana aku tak boleh melupakan
lari itu tak selesaikan apa-apa
Tapi cukup baik untuk aku tidak berduka

Rasa itu bukan lagi satu kepentingan
Sampai aku perlu rasa pedih
dan tak mahu hidup lagi

Jadi aku pilih tidak hadapi realiti
Dan mengelak setiap kali
Aku masih rasa apa yang pernah aku rasa
Tapi tidak kuat sampai aku pedih

Susah untuk mengelak dari merasa yang dulu
tapi mungkin lebih baik begitu
Dari berterusan mengharap dan mengharap.
Dan mengharap.

Cukup kali ini
Aku tak mahu lagi
Aku akan terus buat tak tahu
Buat hal aku
Cakap bila perlu
Tegur bila mahu

Aku tak mahu dia rasa apa aku rasa
tapi kalau rasa apa salahnya haahaha
Baru dia rasa apa aku rasa
Biar dia jatuh
Biar dia takut
Takut untuk jatuh

[Sori,the stupidest post ever,because aku bodoh biar aku jatuh.Bodohkan?}

Sunday, December 13

Roaches.Cockroaches.Karkozia.

Room Sweet Room
Sampai gak akhirnya
Bilik.
Hostel.
KTDI.
UTM.
And as I turn the door knob
I think I had this really strange,eerie feeling.
Squeeeeeeek...
There,piles of stuff.
On the bed.
Under the bed.
Beside the bed.
On the table.
Under it.
Beside.
Locker unlocked.Obviously by me.
Obviously because I can't.
Obviously too much stuff stuffed inside it.
At least it is obviously obvious to me.
And one pile of clothes
Bersih,tak bersih? I can't differentiate
It's been one hell of dusty month.
and one hellish cobweb month too.
And I swear I saw like three cockroaches.
And another two.dead.
geez

So I started to kemas like for 24 hours.
Literally speaking.
I started like 2 pm yesterday
And now it's 2 pm today
My lapytopy all dusty.
Blogging in after-dust.
Dusty,cobweby post.

So just now I took a big chunk of baju.
Into a relatively small washing machine.
And do you know what.
I saw the 6th roach.
Worst part? Dead.
Between my bajus.

Hear ye!hear ye!
Roach the Sixth is dead.

[ The Karkozia thingy? Have ever watch The Terminal? Tom Hanks? Airport? Well,I watched it again last night. Sounded appropriate and rhyme-y, isn't it? ;-) ]



Saturday, December 5

New Moon.New Azam.

I was at the most boring counter,where the number of human coming to pay is eerily similar to the number of my fingers.and toes.
Pen in hand.I started to scribble things empty-mindedly. The past.scribble.present.scribble...And then came the future.
From scribbling,now I'm jotting down my mind. This is serious man! [last ayat credited to my first annoying customer]
So this is my list of things to do in the next 10 years.


1. Take piano lesson. Just love piano.
2. Take Taek Won Do class. HaiyaAaaaaAAa!!!!!!
3. Staying fit.or better yet- Put up some muscle.
  • push-up and sit-up
  • jogging
  • futsal
  • eat well
4. Learn to draw and paint. Professionally.
5.Actively blogging,which I'm trying hard now.
6. Study like never before.
7. Kahwin. Seriously.

I better done this quick,because I'm putting this public.
World....see me achieve all this.But now got some customers to be 'entertained'.

Yes sir? Lubricant? $29.95. Ka-ching! Thank you Sir. Come again.

Kawan UntuK Hidup- frens for life

learnt a lot in just one day.
hanging out with frens. trouble i'm in...tapi xde yang sincerely tolong.
aku jarang nak mengungkit,tapi nak wat camne,dissappointed gile.
so today aku ter-mengungkit to them.i feel like a monster doing that.sigh.
and i can now know what kind of people i wanna b fren with.for life.

b4,every fren is a fren.
now,i know i cannot be fren with everyone- in da sense of >>> FOR LIFE.
yeah i can tolerate with each and everyone of my frens.but frens dat share some intimacy(in a good way,note dat), understand what we feel, what we need,to have that mutual needs and feelings, is just rare.

dats why i still now termenung at exceptional nights...thinking of how glorious my days at school with frens so mutual.em em.and do some salty water accumulate near my eye-bagged eyes at exceptionally horrible nights.

end words so cliche- if only i could turn back time.

Tuesday, December 1

Sembahyang Itu Susah

Seriously susah....Susah gile nak sembahyang. For a few reasons...

  1. Surau is a Never-neverland. or more accurately Far-far-awayland. Jauh gile,i have to make a complete 'lap' to reach it.The shortcut was cut short. By the authorities. For safety reasons.Huh...?
  2. The time is short. because it was given by a sick employer, very sick in this case. Islamophobic?
  3. The employer is so mean , i had to be interviewed before i can sembahyang. With questions so rude, and rules too kuku besi. examples:
"Berapa kali you nak sembahyang?"
"Berapa lama kamu sembahyang?"
"Tunggu. Takde orang nak ganti kamu...(padahal Maghrib nak abes)"
"Jangan lama sangat ye?"..(padahal bagi sembahyang lambat)
"Mintak kat orang lain." (tiba-tiba takde kuasa,control)
"Kenape tak sembahyang siap-siap sebelum kerja?" (hello? kerja pukul 4,Asar 4 setengah)
Bila untung dunia dikejar-kejar....camni la.kebajikan pekerja lebur cam eskem lambat scan.
Tapi ada gak yang surrender dengan all this crap rules. Or maybe surrendered looooong ago. With or without the rules. Sigh.
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