perfectlyimperfect

Have been very jahat lately ... As if I'm immortal As if I'm invincible Dan adapun orang yang kitabnya Diberi ke tangan kirinya Maka akan dia berkata "Alangkah baiknya jika Kitabku tidak diberikan padaku Hingga aku tak tahu Bagaimana perhitunganku Wahai,kira mati penyudah segala sesuatu Hartaku Tiada sedikit berguna bagiku Kuasaku Telah hilang dariku" "Tangkaplah dia!" "Lalu belenggu tangannya ke lehernya!" "Lalu campak ke dalam neraka yang menyala-nyala!" "Lalu belit dia dengan rantai tujuh puluh hasta!" al-Haqqah:25~32

Enjoying every minute of my life today As if there's no tomorrow Eating out today Futsal tomorrow Make jokes of everything And laughing about anything I love my friends I think I wouldn't be me without them and they wouldn't be them without me- I hope I don't want to have regrets anymore Live my life to the fullest and never get tired of it urgh,got to tidur ! There's futsal tomorrow!

Aku pernah rasa dulu Rasa bahagia merasa cinta Rasa paling kuat aku sangka Aku terdiam bila aku tersilap Aku senyap bila aku tahu Rasa bila didusta itu lagi kuat lagi pedih Jadi aku sekarang cuba lari kerana aku tak boleh melupakan lari itu tak selesaikan apa-apa Tapi cukup baik untuk aku tidak berduka Rasa itu bukan lagi satu kepentingan Sampai aku perlu rasa pedih dan tak mahu hidup lagi Jadi aku pilih tidak hadapi realiti Dan mengelak setiap kali Aku masih rasa apa yang pernah aku rasa Tapi tidak kuat sampai aku pedih Susah untuk mengelak dari merasa yang dulu tapi mungkin lebih baik begitu Dari berterusan mengharap dan mengharap. Dan mengharap. Cukup kali ini Aku tak mahu lagi Aku akan terus buat tak tahu Buat hal aku Cakap bila perlu Tegur bila mahu Aku tak mahu dia rasa apa aku rasa tapi kalau rasa apa salahnya haahaha Baru dia rasa apa aku rasa Biar dia jatuh Biar dia takut Takut untuk jatuh [Sori,the stupidest post ever,because aku bodoh biar aku jatuh.Bodohkan?}

I was at the most boring counter,where the number of human coming to pay is eerily similar to the number of my fingers.and toes. Pen in hand.I started to scribble things empty-mindedly. The past.scribble.present.scribble...And then came the future. From scribbling,now I'm jotting down my mind. This is serious man! [last ayat credited to my first annoying customer] So this is my list of things to do in the next 10 years. 1. Take piano lesson. Just love piano. 2. Take Taek Won Do class. HaiyaAaaaaAAa!!!!!! 3. Staying fit.or better yet- Put up some muscle. push-up and sit-up jogging futsal eat well 4. Learn to draw and paint. Professionally. 5.Actively blogging,which I'm trying hard now. 6. Study like never before. 7. Kahwin . Seriously. I better done this quick,because I'm putting this public. World....see me achieve all this.But now got some customers to be 'entertained'. Yes sir? Lubricant? $29.95. Ka-ching! Thank you Sir. Come again.

learnt a lot in just one day. hanging out with frens. trouble i'm in...tapi xde yang sincerely tolong. aku jarang nak mengungkit,tapi nak wat camne, dissappointed gile. so today aku ter-mengungkit to them.i feel like a monster doing that.sigh. and i can now know what kind of people i wanna b fren with.for life. b4,every fren is a fren. now,i know i cannot be fren with everyone- in da sense of >>> FOR LIFE. yeah i can tolerate with each and everyone of my frens.but frens dat share some intimacy(in a good way,note dat), understand what we feel, what we need,to have that mutual needs and feelings, is just rare. dats why i still now termenung at exceptional nights...thinking of how glorious my days at school with frens so mutual.em em.and do some salty water accumulate near my eye-bagged eyes at exceptionally horrible nights. end words so cliche- if only i could turn back time.

Seriously susah....Susah gile nak sembahyang. For a few reasons... Surau is a Never-neverland. or more accurately Far-far-awayland. Jauh gile,i have to make a complete 'lap' to reach it.The shortcut was cut short. By the authorities. For safety reasons.Huh...? The time is short. because it was given by a sick employer, very sick in this case. Islamophobic? The employer is so mean , i had to be interviewed before i can sembahyang . With questions so rude, and rules too kuku besi . examples: "Berapa kali you nak sembahyang?" "Berapa lama kamu sembahyang?" "Tunggu. Takde orang nak ganti kamu...(padahal Maghrib nak abes)" "Jangan lama sangat ye?"..(padahal bagi sembahyang lambat) "Mintak kat orang lain." (tiba-tiba takde kuasa, control ) "Kenape tak sembahyang siap-siap sebelum kerja?" (hello? kerja pukul 4,Asar 4 setengah) Bila untung dunia dikejar-kejar....camni la.kebajikan pekerja lebur cam eskem lambat scan. Tapi a...