perfectlyimperfect

What should I do now that I had lost a bestfriend, and making one eerie enemy. One that knows your every secrets and your hidden personality. Knows how you would react at things, and knows what will hurt you the most. Things cannot be any worst than that. You calculated every move so that there will be no chance you will get hurt,yet you are. An enemy who knows your weakness more than yourself. There you are hoping things will turn out fine, when your old friend turn out to be planning the next move. You will be taken down subtly, yet painfully. I'm going down now. So much that I suffocated with life. Dying because of life, how can you ask to be alive. But ask me if I'm giving up. Well, I'm not even giving in. So watch out you wicked,arsehole, life-sucking, ungrateful forgetful old friend. I will rise up again, and you will be sorry that you messed up with an old friend who knows just as much about you,too. You had crossed the line. I lost my patience. I will not just watch...

Sampai satu ketika Sampai satu tahap Sampai satu takat Aku hilang sabar Aku hilang percaya Aku hilang suka Dan aku biar Tak peduli Tak hirau Tak kisah But it came back to me If orang wat salah kat aku Then patut ke aku wat balik Ignoring IS boring

I'm done worrying bout how they would feel I'm done worrying others when I neglected myself I'm done crying,mourning,sighing, thinking Of why so many can't understand That I done no good for reward That I done all of it for nothing That I done all that not for the silly words "thank you" I asked nothing of that What's more to be treated bad When i had just done nice Aku buat baik Ikhlas, kerana Allah Demi persahabatan Aku buat baik tapi dibalas taik Kalau kau tak boleh,tak mampu,tak mahu Buat baik pada aku Jangan la buat jahat pada aku Please... Tak fair Tak fair langsung Ya Allah aku tahu Kau Maha Adil Tapi sebelum Kau adili dia yang menganiaya Bukalah dulu pintu dan mata hatinya Biar dia faham niatku Biar dia mengerti perasaanku Tapi jika penghinaan dan seksaan Yang dia pilih buatku Aku tahu dunia ini bukan penamat Akan ada balasan di hari kiamat Wahai kawan,please la stop it I have no guts to treat you bad back Kalau ada salah silap, Ada dendam kesumat ...

There's no word to describe a human Once you defined a human I bet he will change In a blink of an eye Or much less than that Orang keliling aku Aku penat Aku tak tahu macam mana nak bagi puas hati Now I'm either alone in my room Or in a crowd of people I cannot understand And I don't know which one of those Make me feel so much lonely Scene: Bilik kosong, bilik penuh Soundtrack: I'm With You by Avril Lavigne

Aku asyik melangkah Garis yang tak boleh dilangkah Mungkin aku salah Memang aku salah Maafkan aku Salah aku Kalau aku ulangi lagi Ingatkan aku Scene: Pushy, Promise-breaker Soundtrack: Use Somebody by Kings of Leon (love this track!) Location: End of the block

I'm sick of persatuan,kelab...they shaded and shadowed the friendship Ketika diri mencari sinar Secebis cahaya menerangi laluan Ada kalanya langkahku tersasar Tersungkur di lembah kegelapan Bagaikan terdengar bisikan rindu Mengalun kalimah menyapa keinsafan Kehadiranmu menyentuh kalbu Menyalakan obor pengharapan Tika ku kealpaan Kau bisikkan bicara keinsafan Kau beri kekuatan tika aku Diuji dengan dugaan Saat ku kehilangan keyakinan Kau nyalakan harapan Saat ku meragukan keampunan Tuhan Kau katakan rahmatNya mengatasi segala Menitis airmataku keharuan Kepada sebuah pertemuan Kehadiranmu mendamaikan Hati yang dahulu keresahan Cinta yang semakin kesamaran Kau gilap cahaya kebahagiaan Tulus keikhlasan menjadi ikatan Dengan restu kasihMu oh Tuhan Titisan air mata menyubur cinta Dan rindu pun berbunga Mekar tidak pernah layu Damainya hati Yang dulu resah keliru Cintaku takkan pudar diuji dugaan Mengharum dalam harapan Moga kan kesampaian kepada Tuhan Lantaran diri hamba kerdil dan hina ...