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Kau okay tak kat sana? I was freaking out when I know how serious things in Egypt now. Gunshots, raping, burglaries, prison-breaks... Gila kot.Gila. Better be okay Zul Just pack your bags and go home already [credit to Tyra] Serious, aku cuak ni. Balik, now.

Adeh, aku ingat musim hujan dah stop . Lama jugak musim hujan kali ini. Global warming. Blame it on those SKP undergraduates. LOL. Sempena hujan yang kadang-kadang tak menentu ni,mesti tak ingat nak bawak payung. So , aku bagilah kat korang tips untuk meredah hujan dengan jayanya. Aku ni suka sangat tengok dokumentari. Huge fan of National Geographic & History Channel . like HUUUGE. So , apa yang aku nak cerita, mungkin dah selalu dah dengar. Anyway, jom terjah those tips... Kalau hujan, mestilah ada petir dan kilat. Jadi elakkan menjadi objek tertinggi pada satu kawasan lapang. It might hit you, and burn you like a marshmallow. Owh, the rule don't just applies on tall and handsome guy like me. Yes, you too short people =P Kalau hujan tiba-tiba, larilah dengan tak malunya menahan kereta. Jangan lepak bawah pokok. Bukan, bukan kerana amalan melepak itu tidak bagus. Just that, trees are more likely to be stroked by lightning. While fully enclosed place like a car (or a house) ...

You got friends who said they love you. You got family that admitted they understand you. You felt secured and you want to open up, but your heart stopped you, because it felt that you’re not. What’s that little uneasiness you experienced when you’re trying to be you? What’s that little uncertainty that came in the middle of conversations? What’s that sudden rush to stop your mouth and zipped your lips? Between those laughs and smiles, you found that hole inside your heart. One that can’t be filled with mere friendship, clumsy relationship. A hole too deep you can’t see the bottom, one too dark it sucked all light. One hole you kept hidden all this time. You covered it with fake smiles and forceful laughs. You want to show it to your best friend, but you know he wouldn’t come near. You longed for something, but you don’t know what you longed for. You want to be you, but can you tell who are you? All this time, all those friends you acquired, all those people besides you, all those Face...

Hanya kerana Kau tiada pernah bersuara padaku Lalu ku anggap tiada Kamu Aku tinggalkanMu Aku lupakanMu ~Beri aku satu peluang, walau jutaan kali pernah Kauberikan~

Satu lagi siri baru dalam blog aku yang takde konsep; resipi! Memang passion aku tgk cerita masak-masak kat AFC ( Asian Food Channel ), just stalk Facebook aku , you will notice "Top Chef". Memang terbaik, Amazing Race pun tak cemas macam Top Chef. But why recipe, and why now? Soalan dari orang putih yang maybe baca blog aku, aku akan jawab. I have started cooking, or at least tolong tengok and potong-potong =p Sempena Thaipusam agaknya, classmate merangkap budak blok aku beli cooker , RM 120++ jugak dia berhabis dekat pasar raya Gergasi Giant. Mentang-mentang duit ribu raban dah masuk. And to start using it, he decided on making chicken curry! Kalau aku, maybe Maggi Kari je kot. LOL. Aku tak tau kari ayam susah ke tak nak dibuat, yang aku pasti aku nak jugak cerita dekat dalam ni sebab aku ni cepat lupa. So now, this is my blog/cookbook! Clap clap clap...!!! Recipe given is the simplified version okay, sebab dah tak ingat dah (see???!) Tumis 1) Bawang besar sebijik ( d...

Okeh, for the very the very first time I will tiru my blogger friend topic: denda. Baiklah, ikat tali pinggang keledar anda, kerana anda akan saya bawa merentas ruang dan zaman, membelah space and time continuum (sila imagine kertas kalendar terselak-selak) , menyelak kembali lembaran sejarah, melukut di tepian gantang, menanam tebu di pinggir bibir, dan segala macam 'me-' lagilah... untuk menyelami dan menelusuri kembali, denda-denda yang pernah saya terima sepanjang dekad pertama dan kedua kehidupan saya. Enuff of bunga-bunga , let's get down to the facts yawww.... Masa sekolah rendah, denda cikgu bagi memang standard dengan orang lain kot. Tak kuasa aku nak cerita teknik-teknik melangsaikan denda berbentuk ketuk-ketampi, jalan itik, berdiri atas kerusi. Itu mudah. But lemme tell you something, aku kira baik jugaklah masa sekolah rendah. So denda-denda ni memang jarang kena. Tapi ada denda yang aku tak akan lupa sampai bila-bila... Masa sekolah a...

Kraker Hup Seng = Biskut Cap Ping Pong Sorry sebab buang masa korang load gambar yang nampak innocent ni.Kenapa upload? Apa? Oh, tidak saya bukan LI di kilang biskut ternama ini. Nak tau tanya budak ini . Tak kenal? Tengok la wall Facebook saya.

Kehadapan satu-satunya adikku. Adikku, apalah kiranya sedikit ujian yang dilempar Tuhan padaku, jika dibanding rasa sakit dan tak berdaya yang dikirim Tuhan padamu. Aku mengaduh pada ujian yang terlalu kecil, sedang kamu tenang hadapi seksa dunia tanpa banyak tanya. Bila saja aku disakiti, mudah saja aku palit marahku pada manusia sekitarku; mencaci, mencarut, mencerca. Tapi kamu, ah kuat amat. Kamu pendam dan diam, bagimu biar seksamu untukmu sendiri. Emak kata, sepanjang kamu derita, tak pernah lepas satu kata 'Aduh' dari bibir pucatmu. Kaubiar seksamu untukmu sendiri. Adikku, kamu ingat kita berdua sendiri di meja makan di pagi raya? Setiap kali teringat aku itu, sebak dada bagai kau baru tiada rasanya. Renungmu kosong, mungkin bersyukur sempat menyambut raya. Mungkin berfikir bilakah masamu akan tiba. Saat itu juga, bergenang mataku, lalu aku lajukan kunyah lemang dan rendang, tak mahu kulihat berduka kamu di pagi raya. Ah, adikku. Masih dengan senyummu, walau diri separuh ...

Okeh, hati ini tengah panas amat sekarang. Bajet gila babun mamat sekor ni. This is the story... Aku tengah makan ramai-ramai dengan kawan-kawan. Then as usual, buat lawak, gelak-gelak... OK, here it goes. Aku melawak dengan kawan aku (let's put him as A ) about something (tak lawak mana pun actually ) . Then, this A just gave me this grin. Senyum kesian kot. Huhu. Then,mamat babun yang duduk sebelah A suddenly tanya, "Apa dia ko cakap tadi?" Dia tak dengar apa aku cakap tadi. Nobody loves to repeat things, especially when it was a not-so-funny joke right? So I said, "Takde pape..." I'm saying this nicely, note that. With a smile lagi. Then someone distract mamat ni, tanya apa entah, then finish, dia paling lagi tanya, "Apa dia ko cakap tadi?" It really wasn't that funny, not worth repeating, and exclusive for kawan aku A- meaning kalau aku cakap kat mamat babun (B-lah senang) dia takkan faham pun what else to laugh, so aku cakap kat B dengan...

Segan rasanya berada di sisimu Bagai didampingi malaikat Sungguh tiada manusia sempurna aku tahu Tapi kamu kulihat cukup sifat Gaya dan tingkahmu Biasa sederhana Senyum dan guraumu Terjaga batas Pencipta Tapi bila kuterpandang sisi gelapmu Yang terhindar dari pandangnya manusia Aku percayakanmu, aku ragui diriku Mungkin ini kebetulan, ini tidak sengaja Kulihat pula kali kedua Meruntun sungguh hatiku, sungguh! Aku tahu tiada manusia sempurna Kaubuat aku gamam dan takut Bagaimana harusku lihatmu seperti sedia Bila sudah nampak jelas rahsia Yang mungkin jarang kaulakukan Yang mungkin juga lama disimpan Bagaimana harusku nyatakan padamu Kerana kau nyatanya lebih sempurna dariku Lalu kuhadang malumu Lalu kututup aibmu

Can’t you see How I’m into you? I get so clumsy When you I see You make me breathless The atmosphere’s awkward You’ll start conversations first While talking, you’ll lean forward Like you’re so interested When all we talk was weather As if I’m talking jokes You’ll crack with laughter Then you give me your punchline Which is always better When you’re not laughing All you do was smiling Can’t you see I’m gasping? Between all those talking But all the time You’ll keep your head down Eyes steadfast on the floor You look so gentle, I’m in awe Then there will be time you’ll be in silence As if you’re mustering confidence As if you want to say something But can’t bring it to talking Was the feeling mutual? Was it for real? Do you feel the same? Do you feel it too? Just say it, I’ll answer, “ Me too .”

Aku appreciate usaha-usaha mereka nak upgrade/renovate/beautify tandas aku. Aku sentiasa mendoakan yang terbaik terhadap incik-incik indon yang kerja bermati-matian. Aku siap sokong TimNas kot masa final bola baru ni ( yeah, right ) . Tapi kalau berzaman bertukang tak siap-siap lagi, sape tak hangi n beb. Dari study week dah start pahat berbunyi, but still rumah tandas tak siap. [habislah kalau aku dah b ermadah] Dengan habuk simen, dengan bunyi gerudi, bunyi potong tiles . Adoyaii… Dah jatuh teruk result aku sem lepas. Dem-it . [ayat mengkambing-hitamk an incik indon ] Yang tak boleh blah, time aku balik dari cuti sebulan, tak ada progress langsung. Diorang pun cuti kot?Terbaekk. Siap ada cebisan kertas bungkus simen lagi dalam bilik aku.Hampeh punya garuda. [ni tak sakit hati sangat sebab memang aku tinggalkan bilik bersepah :-p ] Yang buat aku angin sampai nak beli minyak yuyi cap limau , ada k e patut di- renovate/upgrade/beautify semua bilik air. Mana...

Naja: Hello Cik Tyra Banks. Nasihat awak tak boleh pakailah. Tyra: Err...hello? First of all who the heck are you? Second of all, my advice works. Everytime. Naja: (amboi bongkak gile dia ni) Siapa saya tak penting. Yang penting nasihat awak hampeh. Tyra: I dunno who are you are but wuteva (rooling her eyes) . Which advice is this anyway? Naja: Alah,awak tu satu je nasihat ada. Bajet power . Tyra: Okay, you just pissed me off. Like literally. Urea pissed. Now, which advice? Tell me now or else... Naja: Rilek la bro . Alah, yang senyum pakai mata tu. Smile with your eyes (mocking) . Tyra: Oh, the Smeyes rule? I LOOOOVE that rule (squeaking) !!! Naja: (Annoyed) Hoi, are you even listening!? I just despised your stupid advice. Tyra: Oh, you just know how to make me angry boy. Naja: Dah nasihat awak tu tak boleh pakai... Tyra: When and where did you used this rule??? In a toilet or sumthin'? Naja: Ngek awak. Mana ada orang senyum time buang air. Tyra: That's a sarcasm you litt...

This is a really panjang post...so I bold out some main points to help you. Enjoy/Suffer! Since I know what life is, there’s nothing in it but pain. I cannot do this without help, yet I’m here, by myself. It’s like I’m invisible, no one cares. It’s like I’m invincible, they hurt me everytime. You see, when I choose this path, I choose myself to be alone. And with that, I’m lonely. If I can, I will choose the path the majority took, but there’s only one truth: I can’t . No one would probably understand this, but there’s nothing playful abou t this. I choose this painful path, just because the path you took will probably hurt me more than this. I didn’t choose myself to be different; I’m made different. Every night was the blackest night for me. Everytime I creep into my bed, I can’t help but to think of how lonely the day was. Perhaps you can never understand me,perhaps you would ask, ”how can a person so happy and glee said that he was lonely? How can a person who laugh at the s...